move on

shit always happen. always happen to me. the thing i want to do the most, i dont get support from the one i love. and what i wish for the most, never happened to me. my life is not like a fairytale. my life isnt perfect. but who is?

feeling so disappointed and frustrated at the moment. it just kills everything. sometimes i just get too hard up on a thing and it affects me a hell lot, in a bad way. if you ask me what will make me feel a pinch, that would be to pay for mistakes. in money terms. and i really feel the pain. LIKE PAYING FOR NOTHING IN THE END?!

ytd i watched benjamin button again, and i learnt something. “You can be as mad as a mad dog at the way things went, you can curse the fates, but when it comes to the end, you have to let go.” in the show it was actually a scene with the captain dying. but i thought it can be applied to daily life. but perhaps not let go in this case. let go and "move on" might be a better term. 

sidetrack abit but this is awesome:
“For what it’s worth: it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.” 
― Eric Roth, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button screenplay

feeling better suddenly after consoling myself. these are stuff running through my mind that might seem ridiculous. but previously i have seen through life, and indeed, it is better if i took everything with open mind and not get too hard up on things which didnt mean anything to others. others can eat live breathe without you, then why bother thinking and getting affected by it.


im gonna let nature takes its course. for now, it will just be a day unplanned. no expectation allow my heart to be at peace. i wont bother wasting cash to plan another stayover. it just reminds me of the wasted money.

ok let go let go. and move on. heading out to have nice lunch and movie. adios.