Uncertainty

It's amazing how I only come to this space when I have pretty sad days with lots of reflections. I am starting to lose touch and meaning and I don't seem to feel that much anymore. Each day I'm just engulfed with anger and sadness over the little insensitive things which means alot to me, but things just don't happen the way I would love them to. I really start to wonder alot these days if I made the right choice. If this was wrong then how would life be from then on if I decide to make it so called right? I need some reassurance but each step I take I feel unappreciated and demoralized. Time to time I try to put up with it, brush it off or even try to forget, but time only made everything clearer to me. I feel like I'm lying to myself and I really don't feel exactly happy. Is this the way love should be? Where did the love go? It's gonna be a huge step if I decide to take a u turn now. Really afraid of what lies ahead cos it just seem so uncertain and I could only think of the worst. Maybe in time, what doesn't kill you make you stronger will be a great song for me.