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the title speaks a thousand words. so boredzxzx. gosh.

am super good girl today. homie, on a saturday. amazing isnt it?? HAHA. yesyes, DONT JUDGE ME. no one asked me out cos everyone's busy w exams. all my smartie pants friends. either that or i just have no friends. boohoo.

shell decided to push the swimming date to tmr. cant wait for tmr tho. SQUEALS. haha. the thought of chillin at MBS sky garden pool is just heaven. like a atas somebody. LOLOL.

recently i've been hot and cold. and things forced me to bring my stupid temper out of the house. i always lose my cool to my friends. honestly some of the things they do really irritate me. but i wont be angry for long. (if you know me well enough, im never angry overnight.) if it goes beyond mins, hours, or dayss, then it's gonna be hard. i can be cool but you know those are times when it's just stored in one corner of my mind. but again good thing is i have really poor memory so it depends. selective memory.

then it triggers me to think, so am i at fault? i highly think so. and i blame it on my stupid short temper.

i guess if im really angry, you know i am cos im never usually angry. my friends would be shocked if i said i confronted and argued w my boss. cos im so timid if i have the courage to do so, it means it's beyond my tolerance. and i just cannot tahan!!!!


just wanna say sorry if i ever lose my temper and cool to you, my friend :) i know i suck but everyone has flaws. it's good to know what they are. at least you can explain for some of things which happened.


ps. and dont ever talk about it to me anymore. i'd just brush it off. cos it was kinda, sorta, disappointing? period




maybe i shld go down to swim. eh i hope dad get me a room at rws next wk. heeheehee. we girls can have our own party.

am thinking of getting reb and her bf and paul to use up the voucher which wilson gave me for my bday. it's a voucher - lunch or dinner for 4 at carousel. geez. and paul is not my somebody. it's just he treated me to tony roma and movie so i guess it's only right if i treat him too. as for reb's bf, it's to make sure he's super uber ultra nice to reb. really cant think of anyone else to have the lunch or dinner with. cos it wont be fair. humpf. only 4. zzzzz.

byebye!














i am so happy. i am crazy. i think i can laugh in my sleep. HAHAHAHA. fuck! too happy. tmr is the last presentation already!!! this week has been really fucked up cos of all the miscommunication in submission dates and presentation dates. like it makes you think, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG W THE SCH SYSTEM???? fucked up, all the way.

and honestly, i havent been slping well these days. i cant slp. i have been having nightmares but im so tired, i forgot if i was having nightmare or slping. i really dont know? HAHA. stupid or what right.

i hate to say this. i know shell will read this. but all the things that are happening to her, happened to me 2 years back? and i dont wanna rmb how it felt like to be slashed in my heart. i dont wanna recall how many sleepless nights i had i was so afraid of losing i couldnt sleep and wake up feeling so scared. that feeling is like ULTIMATE SHIT HOLE. been to hell. but it's true, what doesnt kill you make you stronger. but you know it's there, this little corner where you'll still rmb how all the shit almost took your life away. really need lotsa loving to fill it up again. just to build everything up from zero again.

really cant blame it if that person isnt meant for you. but cheating????? gg out w a girl to the movies behind your gf's back? i think i was too innocent huh. wasnt suspicious enough to suspect anything. how dumb. haha. that WAS me. far way too gullible.

PLEASE DONT EVEN TRY NEXT TIME? BREAK UP BEFORE YOU EVEN TRY TO HOOK SOMEONE ELSE UP. FUCKED UP. I CANNOT TAKE THIS. I WANNA PUNCH HIM ALREADY. GRRRRR.

worst thing indeed is knowing your best/good friend took him away from you. no matter how kind/nice she is, when it comes to relationship matters, two words for her: FUCKED UP!!

OKAY I REALLY BUAY TAHAN. VERY DULANZ.

wish me luck for my last lap tmr! i love you!!!









































i was actually very angry? it's alright if ppl who dont even know me at all or ppl whom dont know me well enough, judge me. but you? i guess it's pretty much cos you matter to me. and now on, i suppose it's all very obvious. you really have sth against me. and you judge me. what more can i say? after knowing me for years if this is what you can make up of me then so be it? really disappointed.

recently im starting to think the problem really lies w me. but i tried, i really tried to be the perfect girl. and im really tired. so go ahead and judge and say whatever you want. cos i aint worthy of your friendship love care and concern.


bye.




i wanna be your dream girl.




this is my last straw already. quite tiring. i shld just quit trying.
no expectation = zero disappointment.


sheeesh i missed a chance ytd. damn!! i wanna slap myself.



half a year and im getting abit sick and tired already.... like i'll get bored in the midst when everyone's gg crazy, high on alcohol. i just stop and watch everyone -.- goshhh and i keep checking time. guess time passing too slowly. its a sign..

ytd i was waiting for cab outside my condo at 10plus. it was damn hard to get a cab cos everyone was changing shift. and i waited for quite sometime before an angmoh walked out from my condo and asked sth like if im waiting for a cab. so we were both flagging for cabs. you know i always anyhow try. i flagged hired cabs also. then suddenly this cab stopped. think its some angmoh passenger, he said he's gg to mariott hotel. WTF -.- QUESTION MARK. so i said nah its okay. my angmoh "neighbour" looked at me and said THATS WEIRD. hahahah.

finally when i saw a green light cab, i asked where he's gg. he replied st james and asked where i was gg. i said zouk. HE LET ME BOARD/TAKE THE CAB FIRST. SO NICE!! HE IS CUTE. but why st james -.- haha.


so much friendliness & kindness, abit overwhelming cos not used to it. but it's really nice of him. he made my night.

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