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fd comp is TMR!!! it's like less than 12 hrs away. im so scared. im afraid i will excute e drill wrongly. i tink i wont be able to slp well tonite. tis comp is so impt to ijrcy. it's far too impt. seriously hope tt ij will do well tmr. no matter wad, we all stay together as one.




sometimes how i wish im studying in a neighbourhood sch. be an ordinary sch gal. life can nv be e same being in a gals sch n a gals sch tat is so far away frm home. if onli im studying in a neighbourhood sec sch.. i might be enjoying life.. i might not be in rc anymore.. i might probably hav frenz all over e sch.. whether is it junior or senior.. might hav a cousin in tat sch.. might hav joined npcc.. might hav loads n loads of things. i dunt know. being in a gals can be a gd experience it can oso b quite a nightmare. imagine tat time if i reali transferred to presbyterian high. i wonder how would life be. or wad if i studied harder n got into anderson?? i could hav gone to e same class as rebecca.. i miss her loads real loads. i regretted. i shldnt hav slack. perhaps life could be even more stressful there.. looking at jean i sighed. thoughts jux come flowing into my mind. my aim was either to get into methodist gals or anderson. but wells. as evey1 can c. im far off frm my aim. sometimes i tink back n find myself v useless. every1 is working super hard to persue their dreams whereas im still floating aimlessly on e sea. im still thinking if i shld go to poly or jc. wells. i guess i will probably go to jc. sometime last yr i actuali like meridian jc. i dun reali care abt how far it is away frm my hse(yishun). it's kind of mad. hahas. but now im realli spilt in between jc n poly. hm i would consider e dunno wad u so called sch. start wif V de.

today is chu er. cny day 2. something disturbing happened today but wells.. haix.

tis wk is a wk full of fun!!! my body tells me im happy! im high! im stress free!! whee!!
friday suppose to go buy chocs but stupid trg! humpf!
i shall b considerate n go fer trg.
fri not free so changed to sat
but sat im meeting kor
shall ask if it's afternoon or nite
n sun im invited to go church
but handsome cousin is cuming to moi hse
oh mans. no time fer tution.
sux.





toking abt yesterday.. trging was quite fun.. haha.. but my arm swings doesnt seem to coordinate wif eirene's one. dunno y. i asked ade y. she said eirene arm swing not constant. then i asked her "then how come ur can coordinate wif her but i cant??" she said "cox ur slow". im like.. ok fine!!! but i reali cannot coordinate wif her sia. ma'ams keep scolding me. not reali scold la. but ya.. haha.. m.pam n ade say my arm swing too high then i swing lower. then m.mei xia say too low n call me rise higher. ai yo. wad they wan man. n ma'am mei xia said i rise my eyebrows then when she give samulai then i relax my eyebrow n fall out. haha. to tink she actuali realised it when me myself dunno. so funnie...

ohh man.. we R LOSING OUR ANIMAL INSTINCT!!! im ADORING my blog!!! pls dun learn frm me!!! if u r.. oh manss.. ur LOSING UR ANIMAL INSTINCT!!! no way r we going to lose it!!! haha.. ok sorrie im being lame cox im always lame.

mux like poems kay! no matter how much u hate lit..
here's an interesting one.

The Jaguar - Ted Hughes

The apes yawn and adore their fleas in the sun.
The parrots shriek as if they were on fire, or strut
Like cheap tarts to attract the stroller with the nut.
Fautigued with indolence, tiger and lion

Lie still as the sun. The boa-constrictor's coil
Is a fossil. Cage after cage seems empty, or
Stinks of sleepers from the breathing straw.
It might be painted on a nursery wall.

But who runs like the rest oast these arrives
At a cage where the crowd stands, stares, meemerized,
As a child at a dream, at a jaguar hurrying enraged
Through the prison darkness after the drills of his eyes

On a short fierce fuse. Not in boredom -
The eye satisfied to be in blind fire
By the bang if blood in the brain deaf ear -
He spins from the bars but there is no cage to him

More than to the visionary his cell
His stride is the wildernesses of freedom:
The world rolls under the long thrust of his heel.
Over the cage floor the horizon comes.


today i banged onto the pillar. mux be i said the wrong things le. cant believe i banged onto e pillar. terrible. my conclusion is nv to tok bad abt wx in front of her.. if not we'll get it..

e mass n concert today was v.entertaining. think e inter-house lion dance com was sumthing diff frm e previous yrs. n e blessing of orange part... o manns.. haha.. e priest was like practically spraying water on us. haha. suay ppl all kena e water. so they end up being blessed instead of e oranges being blessed.

i actuali got eight!!! eight for my geo!!!!! siao la. im going crazy. i dun believe sia. mux slap myself. anyhow study oso can. tis jux shows tt fam fam is a gd geo cher. yuppx. though e way she teach is TOTALLY rubbish. but wells who cares as long as i get gd grades.

jean changed quite a lot. im so blur. din even c her approaching me till she called my name. then i "eh?" as usual. tat day on bus oso like tat. tis time is at mrt station. hmm.. she looks real tired. so worn out frm perhaps sch work? band? i realli dunno. wonder hw's she's doing rite now in sch. haix. dunno today my lucky day or wad. i saw shumin as i was walking throu e underpass. she din c me. sad. haix.

had to rush home. we had a reunion "lunch" at tis dunno wad restaurant in Marina Square. mum n dad shouting all e way like mad ppl calling us to hurry n blaming each other for being late. we had international buffet. it looks there is a lot of food to eat but when u go n take e food.. u will find tat actuali it's not tat much. n i eat till my stomach cant eat anymore. dunno y today i dun seem to eat a lot but b4 i noe im full alreadi. n i dun like e food there. hate international buffet. cox i dun reali eat seafood. haix. wad a waste of money.










today is monday. i woke up. brush teeth. wash face. blah blah... doesnt tat sound familiar? of course primary one compo! ok im being lame.

hmm.. normal day.. took e stupid bus today. saw e PPL. my gosh. cant be bothered. shall take e super dooper early bus tmr.

yea!!! CNY cumin!!! tmr we're havin mass!!! i love mass!!! though im not a catholic but i love e BLESSED oranges... shooo nice... n SWEET!!!

n i love e pic down there*points downwards*. it's so cutee.. lovely pic... eh. tink i hav to stop here. kor call me to go slp. bye!!



































hm. tis wk has been a busy one. tried to slp as early as i could. real tired. im lucky! i dun hav muscle aches tis wk. i still rmb ms teo lin jing called me siao zha bo. hahahahaha. i forgot to run n throw e ball. haha. so pai seh.
n clara kept calling me xiao niu whole day. then i got say hi to her she say i dao her. she kept asking if she could hug me. i mean like,,, im not tat close to her rite. chi wo de dou fu

wx sk ade clara. wx esp. created a bk to like fa xie. tok abt all e unfair things tat happen within ***** . n she is like writing all e carzy stupid stuff inside it. frm a piece of paper it became a bk! she writes during lessons n passes it ard to sk n ade n clara. oh man. i cant concentrate in class. all i commented was "u guys r mad" n "attention:tis is a minute reminder, it will tell ur tat u guys r mad every 5 min" hahahaha.. im sry guys. but i reali cant take it. u guys r so lame n crazy. wx always tok abt "wad rights do they hav?.... do we hav to suffer in silence???" like going on riot like tt. terrible. even created poems. shoo creative sia. they can earn a living by creating poems nxt time. e things they wrote r damn funny in a way. tok abt prawns n things. sk even created qn on e poem for wx to ans. siao la. they tink they doing unseen poem. wonder when will they stop all tis.

to believe i woke up b4 8 today. usual me would slp till tai yang shai pi gu. haha. bro wasnt using com. so i use! print out all e tags for sec one welcome. mum said i waste ink print all e childish primary sch stuff. i mean like e grp name is like tat wad do u wan me to do? i was merely following e grp name found e pic. m i suppose to tell e ma'ams tat we shldnt use e incredibles. ok anyway my mum was joking. im e i/c of e grp again. sick man. whichever grp im in in any camps, e grp will always hav e least ppl. it's like last yr i kena bunk i/c during trging camp. im a new recuit n ma'ams wan me to b bunk i/c for training camp?? impossible rite. but it actuali happened. im shoo damn scared la pls. got scolded for a lot of things. e whole camp i was so damn scared. couldnt slp well. real afraid of e ma'ams. i still rmb i found myself rolling over to my right side on which is e side xx is slping. n she was saying no wonder she like no space so it was me e one who rolled over to her side. ahahahha... e nxt nite she changed side wif sk n slept on my left but i din roll over to sk. tats weird. guess i jux like xx TOO much.. WAY TOO much.. haha..


ok back. sec one welcome. it's on e 17th. im suppose to go take my ic photo or sumthing. cox my b'dae is 16th n ade say i could take on 16th cox she rmb m.alycia ic issue date was her birth date. n i went to c e letter. it says 17th to dunno which day. too bad. guess i jux hav to leave halfway during sec one welcum. no way m i going to miss lessons. im alreadi sho far back behind others. n xx n cel r going to e omnithreatre on e same day!!! heyys ur cant go!! bad of ur to leave us here when ur go n enjoy. n rmb xx..... tis is ur 3rd yr not attending ec one welcum... think abt it...

cel b'dae on 12 feb. 2 days b4 valentine n mine is 2 days aft. n we'r doing flag duty 2gether nxt wk!!! wheee... nice to hav her as a partner for flag rising. 2gether we keep MOSQUITOES AWAY!! SHOOO!!! O.o she wans a billabong wallet. affected by me i guess. haha. my cousin loves e wallet too. imagine running all e way frm ps to bugis jux to buy wallet. she cant say she dun like.

sold one voucher to hui bin. reali mux thnx her. she's so nice. she was playing soccer today evening when i cycled there. couldnt believe my eyes. she changed a lot. in terms of looks. but she's still as friendly as b4. can rmb when we were primary 4 tat time we spent a realli memorable holiday together at pl. best of e frenz being able to share our joy n worries together. tat time we were all so nerdy still. now we old liao. miss those days at pl. miss e ppl too. `huibin`wanlin`bernice`weini`langston`edwin` but edwin went missin!!! how could he. i still rmb he onli gave his new no. to wl but not me! *face turns green wif jealousy* i always look out for him at e specs shop at sun plaza. but he's nv there.

stupid kor wif ash green hair.






finally it's friday! i love fridays!!

sad. cant hav a proper lunch wif xx,wee,wx,sk,ade,cel n their fren tiffany. was rushing like hell for my tution. ended up onli having a bowl of tau suan. n silly wee tot i finished my lunch n ate dessert liao. haha. reached home got a piece of music frm my mum. lucky my tution cher haven reach my hse yet. if not im dead. she damn funnie. every wk will at least forget to bring something back. last wk was calculator. tis time is bottle. haha. wonder wads up nxt wk. guess my table far too messy tats y. cant be helped.

funnie shona! kept toking to jy non stop in chinese class n they got separated. tis shirley was like asking me if im going out for lunch in class when im like so far away frm her. but in e end she din go out for lunch oso wad. she was dragged to do e wrapping for e CNY deco haha. all thnx to jy. im sitting rite in front of cheng lao shi n i can fall asleep. smart me. wonder if she noes. tink she shld noe. i reali cant concentrate in her class. real boring at times. she will keep toking n toking. im dead already. i dunno how to write e yan jiang gao. shit.

my brother is mad! i was thinking "eh? wad happen to my bro?" i tot e first thing he does always when he reach home is to switch on e com. surprisingly till 8pm a nite there was still no action taken. e area was clear. i ask my bro wad happen to him. he being a v health conscious person, i ask him if he had read anywhere tat playing com game damages ur brain or wad. he said no. i kept asking him y he doesnt play com. he said it was sumthin tats silly n he doesnt wan me to noe. cox i will laugh at him. n indeed it's reali sumthin tats stupid! he finally is willing to tell me wad happen. he saw his fren reading e newspaper on e bus. i ask him who? janice? he say i mad. y always janice. it's like how i noe who is it rite? haha. anyway my bro is shoo like me!!! i luv my bro.

got a shock. received a call frm paul at 21:28. i was solving a maths qn for xx, online n watching tv. he called me mainly to ask me abt how i noe his brother. it's like. i told him e truth. he said i lied to him. i din la. he seems to mind quite a lot tat i noe his bro. he said he would call me back but he nv did... ...







okies let me recall. thurs. had trg. i was e ic. terrible horrible vegetable ic.

everytime one of e ma'ams will come call me or msg me when im at e most relaxed moment. tats last nite. i was toking to xx on e phone. not long aft i hung up.. i went to do tution hw. there e phone rings. n... there goes my lovely nite.

m.yiping n a few other ex ex ma'ams came during trg. being a v blur n slow reaction person. im like doing everything wrongly. m.meixia kept on shouting "alert!" it's like im distracted la. i still dun get y i reported wrongly. im mean as in like i reali dun understand. then went to e class to do admin mah. wad did i do wrong again? m.meixia say "ur ic is obviously SLEEPING!" i got a shocked la. i tot ms yup came in but even if so i tot shld be m.lamlam diam e class. m.meixia expected me to diam e class when she n e fellow ma'ams r there. but it's like. they r alreadi inside e class. do i hav to diam e class?? n i wasnt slping. suay day.

e flag was left up there e whole nite last nite. wx n sk got quite a scolding tis morning. but it's like we hav got late classes n who noes it is still up there. joan lied. she said she din c it yesterday. n goes ard asking others if they saw. if she din c she shld say. y tell lie? wx n sk even ran ard e whole sch trying to look for e flag. poor them.







oh man!!! stupid chem! damn paiseh today. was taking bus no.167 to sch as usual. but i ACTUALI MISSED E STOP!!! *curse curse curse* no wonder e gal was looking me in such a weird way. i tot it was e SLF building stop when e bus stop at our sch cox it was so dark outside n din realised i alreadi reached e stop! everi1 was STARING at me when i alighted 2 stops aft. stupid chem. if onli i wasnt studyin chem in e bus! argh! stupid metals n non metals!! there were IJ gals in e bus too! oh man! so maluating! i shall take e earlier bus to sch tmr.. i dun care!


xx said i lost weight. as in i look thinner. it's like... shld i rejoice??? tink footdrill n stuff make me lost quite a lot weight. she said i look darker too! tats certainly an achievement! dark skin rawks!! n ade says im v. greedy. tats true of course. i eat lotx but i nv seemed to gained weight. was chasing wee wee n shirley ard for e chocolates today. hehex. melted chocos to be precise.

warning: nv eat in front of me, if not i will EAT UP wadeva food ur eating. esp. chocolates











was eating watermelons. WATERMELONS. brings back memories of sdc. e telematch where we hav to like gobble up e whole watermelon wifout touching it. of course e whole face is like full of watermelon juice. so funnie.

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