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i hate the way i keep tripping over the same stone. first time i fall i pick myself up and tell myself everything is gonna be okay. subsequently when i keep falling, i ask myself why? should i be changing path already? that faithful path seem so different from the start till now. it feels so different. every step i take i feel more insecure.

everything's changing; everything is not the same anymore.



what should i do? actually i know the answer but heart tells otherwise.



when will i meet someone who truely believes in me and what i say? do i seem like a liar? why does everyone not have faith in me??? utterly disappointed for that. why does the most down-to-earth people around get accused for being not truthful??? seriously. means actl you dont know me well enough.

omg i hate it!


ok i need to sleep. night!












about ICANN, it was awesome. hahahaha. my colleagues can be quite humorous at times. honestly standing and ushering is no joke. freaking tiring.

but today somehow everything seem not so bad. maybe cos augus was there to entertain us. i could tell he was thinking damn hard on what cold jokes to tell us. a few was really good jokes. i find him alot like weihan, maybe cos of the built. but he seem to be so level headed in everything he does. he studies hard and play hard. we had two things in common:

1. we studied product design. but he was from np and from what he told me, his course is definitely better than sp's?! zzz i swear by that. he's gg to ntu mechanical engineering 2nd yr in august.

2. he also does cheerleading. how awesome.


i wish i studied harder :(


now that i made more contacts, im gonna get more jobs hopefully. hee.

just now we were invited to free flow wine, beer etc. i drank less than one glass of red wine.. BOOMZ. im all red already.

seriously my liquor tolerance decrease already. somehow im getting tired of all these. the last time i went club, was a bad experience. paid for entry, one hour and i was out of that place?


and weeks back two flaming lambos almost killed me. i puked. that was the second time in my life i puked alcohol. i cant drink that much anymore. not alcohol-trained anymore :( time to quit, time to quit, slowly..


i have been thinking alot about everything. i dont know why i actl say that. but i guess i want my face to recover and i want to settle down soon. i want to be really happy without having to rely on partying thrills.

so i tell myself, im open to choices. hahahaha. it doesnt matter if there isnt any, i just need to rid this bad habit of clubbing :)


goodbye ppl. tmr will be good :)










you know what im gonna say about work. only rested one day this wk. been working for 6 days straight for 10 hours since tues. tonight my lower back is aching like hell.

whats worse, my grandma despite undergoing some eye operation saw my swollen neck. honestly i didnt realise? cos it didnt cross my mind: fat neck = thyroid.

gahhh now im feeling all depressed and paranoid. typical me. can only go to see doc for checkup on wed. cos thats the only day im off this coming wk other than thurs. seriously, what the fuck am i thinking hor? work everyday for fuck. fucking tiring.

okay actl i wanna save up for uk trip next year. manchester, london, paris, taiwan, bkk or wherever. just dont wanna spend my summer in sg again.


WTH when im in the mood to upload pics, blogger just have to fail me. where the fuck is the picture icon?!!! argh!

forget it. sorry ppl im really exhausted and if i dont reply constantly, call me k. best is night time. alright gonna crash since the freaking photo icon is down. night.












opt for the safe, or challenging or neither?

i wish they came to my life earlier. but nevertheless they made it.

DO I REALLY NAG ALOT? :( I WAS JUST BEING CONCERNED. AND WAS I OVER CONTROLLING OR ANYTHING. thought i shld be the opposite. i honestly dont know whats wrong?

then theres this uncertainty but i was sure. but now i start to doubt too.


to be honest, i am afraid. please be nice to me? :(


if you would, that would be great.


otherwise, i would silently exit, and i will never come back, again, ever.









i just found out this club called sparks was one of the most happening clubs 10 years ago? LOL.


http://blog.omy.sg/alvinology/2010/11/10/90s-sparks-disco-live-recording/


OMG SONGS LIKE BUTTERFLY?!!! 1997 songs leh hahaha cool.


and this is one of my all time favourite (the one above) :D

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