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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty

let go

Saturday, March 26, 2011 ( 4:19 PM )

once it's of no value to you, just let go. why hold on when it doesnt mean a thing anymore. people forget and move on to greater things. it's time i do so.

on a side note, MY FACE IS CUI TTGM :'( I WANNA CRY.

that day i spent another 150 on doctor again.

yes im back to seeing the doctor after 1 yr.

when will my face be better again?

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DREAMS VS AMBITION

( 1:39 AM )

bill's PR class is always so inspiring. let's just say he is really good at what he's doing. today we side-track and discussed about career.

he said, "dream is just a dream. ambition is a dream with a plan. so stop dreaming, and start doing."

like WOW.

besides, he also added that it's okay in life you dont know what you want YET. cos you will have alot of hobbies. just choose the one you're best at/love most, and make it work.

GOSH. dont it just touch on your heart.

(bill used to work as a part time model when he was much younger cos he's tall. LIKE OMFG?! TOTAL COOLNESS. and he has done hosting, acting, singing with mediacorp. WHO CAN BEAT THAT??? now he is teaching and doing theatre as sideline. apparently as he grew older, he realised that it is more practical to work at PR firm cos the pay is higher and it's what he LOVE! OMG I WANNA BE LIKE HIM. SO COOL. HE IS MY IDOL NOW.)

then it set me thinking. i've been wanting to take up pole dancing for very long. i've always think that the pole might be one of the best buddy i'll ever have. well, but if i just keep dreaming and not executing, i'll never do it right? SO, this coming holiday, im gonna pick up pole dancing already. to keep fit and have a hot body. (hopefully skinner thighs) yep gonna tell mommy im taking up YOGA. HAHAHAH. you know old ppl cant accept yet still.

and my plan for 3 month holiday is to work for many many events over short period of time! earn quick bucks! best if i can travel but i doubt so luh. im sucha pussy. im afraid i'll die somewhere far away from home!

today paul is really ultra nice tho we did bully and abuse each other as usual. he got this free MEGA MEAL at tony aroma so we went to eat. damn freaking full after eating! couldnt even finish. think that was meant for 4 persons -.- HAHA. accompanied him to ph to show face to his friends and signed the friends in, and im home.

WTH MAN. MY PHONE DIED AT 3PM?! HOW DUMB. SERIOUSLY. SO TECHINICALLY W/O PHONE FOR NEAR TO 10 HOURS WAS TORTUROUS?! ZZZZZZ.

I WANNA CLUB TMR NIGHT LEH.

ok byebye!

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coincidental

Friday, March 25, 2011 ( 12:58 AM )

i was trying to get my bro and his friends a part time job. one of his friend added me on fb but i thought it was my friend. COS THE NAME SO COMMON. after i add i realise it's my bro friend. pretty cute and sporty guy... THEN I ANYHOW CLICK "BROTHER" on the friend's profile... WA, CUTE ALSO. tsktsk.

and my bro heard me repeating this song, Edward Maya & Vika Jigulina - Stereo Love. he commented, the friend's brother also like this song. my bro went to their house and he was listening to this.

HOW COINCIDENTAL HOR. LIFE...

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any.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011 ( 1:45 AM )

realised my blog used to be much more interesting w all the baking and stuff. instead of bombarding my space w emo stuff i might as well make it a better place. like really talk about stuff.

but recently im too lazy. still in search of a camera! :( buying a G12 in the end might be just as retarded. cos so many ppl have it already! zzz.

ok i shld stop. will do a proper post soon.

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how to be happy

Friday, March 11, 2011 ( 3:49 PM )

can anyone teach me? enlighten me on how to be happy all the time? to feel good about myself and everyone.

today is another day im so bitter about life. everything isnt gg well. im sick and everyone is so busy and caught up w their own lives. i really feel horrible. i feel so lonely.

tho as superficial as it may be, partying is the only thing that will make me happy nowadays. happy to a point, i think i can break down on the dance floor anytime. really. idk. what the hell is wrong w me again right?

really think i always expect too much from ppl. but what im doing, i have my reason. in turn everyone keep blaming me, like i shouldnt be doing this. tell me what should i do? tell me what to do then i will do. im seriously sick and in a very bad mood. not that i like to throw temper at ppl. but fuck luh huh. nobody cares about how i feel anw. everyone is selfish.

i type one whole paragraph, but i dont know what im driving at either. cos im just vexed. i need to rant. furthermore i dont know who is reading my blog. if i mention names, ppl are gonna judge me and blacklist me.

I REALLY HATE TO BE TREATED LIKE SHIT WHEN I TREAT THEM LIKE DIAMONDS. AND PPL WHOM I TREAT LIKE SHIT, TREAT ME LIKE DIAMONDS. WHY.

im really fed up. i really wanna watch movie. but it sucks when theres no one to watch with. walaoeh knn how pathetic can i get right. maybe i should go watch alone HOR.

FUCK.

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MUAH.

Wednesday, March 02, 2011 ( 12:41 AM )

you two made my day.

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first

Tuesday, March 01, 2011 ( 1:46 AM )

after posting my 21st photos on fb, it's the first time i get sooooo many notifications. gosh! cant believe it. (thank you :))

that aside, i've been having nightmares. O M G ? i think god is punishing me. sigh im rly scared. idk what the fuck i've done over the wkend and im totally freaked out cos i couldnt believe all the stupid things i did -.- fell aslp and woke up in great shock after 15 mins of nightmares last night :( RAHHHHHH I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF. I WANNA CRY. I SUCK :( I SHOULD STOP PLAYING AND TRY TO BE MORE DECENT :( I HATE MYSELF....

sometimes i rly have no idea what im thinking myself and doing. WTF IS WRONG W ME.

i must drag eevann w me whenever i go club. im so scared :( sigh.

feeling sick already. after all the long nights and work just now. goodnight all. sorry if i havent been good.

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