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Friday, February 11, 2011 ( 11:00 PM )

i told you im unhappy, would it make a difference?

probably not.

a girl w weak heart like me shldnt even have this "big" thing in the first place. i just created alot of trouble for myself. why so stupid right?? mom' right about me.

maybe, just maybe, if i hadnt have this, it would have just been another day. or rather, it might be the first yr i stop celebrating bdays. no one would give a damn cos everyone has their own commitments.

i sound pathetic. i know right.

now that explains for the need of a special someone. i look around me and realise actl everyone has their special someone! how can this happen to me. it's so cruel ah. sigh. i think sooner or later i'll be driven into desperation to.. gamble or what uh. (i learnt this in class today) okay nvm about that.

i sound so emo when im supposed to be excited. what the fuck is wrong w me? pms maybe.

i really need to learn, to be selective now. and to be on my own. cos friends always say they'll be there for you. but they have their own commitments so they wont look you up just for tea or anything.

so when im bored, i just go to movies myself. laugh and cry to myself. i sit in the fast food restaurant alone looking at ppl give me weird stares. i run errands on my own, like i always do.

im tired already.

this wk the only few person who made my day esp were bryan, clarence, raymond, huiqi, and eevann. i would probably go mad w/o them. i notice how much i need them and i cant live w/o. this sucks, but i trust they'll always be on my side.

bryan came to fetch me after sch on monday and he drove me to run errands, watch movie, dinner, ice cream. he rly made my wk started off well.

well actl i shld be thankful and stop complaining.. im rly paranoid. just cos im kinda emotional doesnt give me the reason to be angry and stuff.

thanks for past, sorry for now, byebye forever? :)

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