learn to love everyday.

i make myself numb to love everyday.

honestly this wk was pretty awesome.

went out w huiqi on monday. we shopped dinner and watched shaolin. ANDY LAU IS SO HANDSOME. hot stuff. somehow in the movie he's damn attractive. i like. home at 12.

tuesday came home i guess. cant rmb.

wednesday was a freaking long day. to the bank w parents to settle stuff. had feifei wanton at geylang and rushed back for facial. OMFG. hahahaha i went to class at 5.30pm w my face so swollen and red. like wtf right. hahaha stupid. i was like trying to cover my face but i got busted! haha ya laugh, laugh more. lesson ended at 8.30pm? haha then it was the night to havoc. ahhahaha. home and went out bare-faced again. how daring can i get. honestly cant be bothered. i swear i look scary w all the red spots. HAHAHAHA. zouk. bumped into kl and blahblah. it was pretty fun. it's weird how i cant fall aslp at 5am after sucha long day.

being a morning person i woke up early on thursday -.- 9? or 10? yeahhh. thursday ended lesson at 8.30pm and bryan came to fetch me to timbre for like drinks and buffalo wings. white wine. honestly good. im starting to like white wine now. havent seen bryan for damn long. and im glad he initiated to meet up and well! he volunteered to sing and dj and mcee for my bday party! hahaha. love him la.

fri i was home la! super good girl.

yesterday i went yuyao bday party! haha it was awesome cos i met kerine and david and another few new faces. heheh. his place is super ulu tho. then to zouk w stacey. eevann and his grp of friends are just super funny ppl. and yep. that's pretty much everything.

thats my wk. and later im gonna send celestine off at the airport! goodbye!

need to start doing work. need to start doing work.

times when i feel like my life is a straight line.

times when i wish i was earning big bucks and driving a BM.

times when my stomach hurts for no reason.

times when im procastinating and not doing work.

these are times when im so bored, i think about nth but everything. stbm.

I KINDA DISLIKE SCHOOL NOW :( sigh. would you please keep me gg? would you?

my timetable is super duber slack. once again today only 1 and 1/2 hr lecture which i only watched video. -.- tmr is quite a long day but it starts only at 1pm. zzzz. and wednesday only 3 hour lesson but it's 5.30 to 8.30pm?! walao. thurs another 3 hour lesson which starts at 2.30pm. thats all.... friday lesson end at 7! seriously tell me i have the worst timetable ever. screwed. lame birdz.

i need to do some research before gg to bed. damn damn super sian. goodnight ppl.

for the maybe hundredth time, 'cos tonight im loving you!!! haha.

OMG! HELLO ALL! HAHAHA.

been so so so long. i know a few of you missed my pictures and posts! not like they're damn fantastic or anything but just for read! :)

FIRST THING FIRST, I AM SO GONNA BE 21st IN A MONTH'S TIME! HOW AWESOME. and then 10 years will zoom past real quickly. okay whatever.

been troubling about the venue and all. damn annoying. really would love to book capella at sentosa. sucha fabulous resort. but it's so expensive and like i dont wish to waste $ on the place. neither do i want to have a crappy chalet. i cant stand all the dirt and insects. okay sorry for being pampered.

SO! i have decided to exploit my dad and uncle's property. HAHA! marina bay residences. the function room is on the 27th floor and the view is ZOMG. the MBS view. if only there was fireworks, it'll be right smack in front of your face. (maybe if chingay is on, maybe there'll be fireworks? maybe we'll see?? haha!) you have to be there to witness for yourself, really. i took pictures but i wont reveal it here. it's an extremely atas condo. (so please dress appropriately too) my aunt was like warning me not to spoil anything cos i paid deposit of 200 bucks. anything spoil, i've to pay. all in all, so happy, cos it's FREE. so much for being singaporean. haha.

the cake and buffet is more or less settled. just keep it simple. cos im lazy. i mean like actually 21 is just another birthday.

huiqi said i shld get more friends to help but im like ahhh i THINK i can settle myself. haha.

IF ONLY I HAD A BOYFRIEND TO SETTLE EVERYTHING FOR ME. BF = SERVANT.

so now im on my own. sigh, one thing that i feel awfully bad about is, i cant invite alot of ppl. alot of ppl are so called on the waiting list. shit. i told my aunt 30 friends, she booked the place. then huiqi said the place can fit 50. so now my list 60. AHH DEEP SHIT. i still have like 10-20 odd i wanna invite but cant.

SO PPL SPACE IS IMPT. PLEASE RSVP IF YOU HAVENT. THANKS. IF NOT I WILL DELETE YOU FROM IT. HAHAHA OK KIDDING.

BLACKBERRY PHONE? IPAD? SO EXPENSIVE RIGHT? I KNOW. SEMI-PRO CAMERA? ALSO EXPENSIVE.

HOW. IDK.

i cant have anymore shoes, bags, clothes as presents. cos my mom will kill me. and anyway currently im happy w my stuff. i dont need more stuff cos i alr have everything i want.

the only thing i can think of that's mini and compact is jewellery eh. bracelet necklace ear studs etc.

OH OKAY. maybe sth from marc by marc jacobs :) any jewellery pieces or bags. laptop case? i love their stuff.

or maybe some special camera. those that you buy for fun and special effects. (okay iphone apps make them seem stupid actl. spoil market cos iphone can create all the effects)

does that help? honestly cant think of anything i need. but you know what. if you're coming alone and you brought nth but a cake/brownie, sth that you baked, i'll be super touched. i think i still love presents that are made by hand, from the heart. really. if i receive baked food on top of presents, I WILL MELT, totally on the spot. need some lovin'.

just started sch for a week. and im honestly still not used to the culture and stuff even after one sem. shell told me she once heard someone say ppl who come to lasalle are weird. like OMG? i dont wish to be one of them. i mean weirdos. i changed class this sem to my fashion management specialism and i realised, I FEEL WEIRD. out of the place. like i have no friends :/ boy, why like that. zz.

lessons. i feel like im studying same thing over and over again. research, design development, mock ups, final design, prototype, etc etc. sigh idk. i just hope for a really good job after i graduate.

timetable is screwed. quite disorganized and it's still changing. i only have a two hour lecture every monday? boy kill me please.

group work is freaking me out cos i havent got to know THEM better. and i've hear alot of bad stuff about them and im so afraid they'll stab me from behind. AHHHHH WHAT THE HECK. thank god i have shell at least. thank god.

when i was home last night, it struck me that i feel so lonely whenever night falls. and parties, they keep me alive, breathing, occupied and happy. i cant think, and that's good. i have fun and yeah im laughing the night away like crazy. when i reach home, i hit the bed and to dreamland i go. so tired so fun. i dont need to think. i like that feeling.

i noticed a drastic change in my attitude. but you know, i cant be bothered anymore. cos life made me the way i am. i dont wanna take control anymore. im tired. think what you guys wanna think.

that night pbff said to me "it's so hard to make you do wrong at clubs". indeed. but who knows the full picture? maybe only pbff cos he was there. to everyone who judge when they dont know a single shit, oh *. i mean that's human nature but be fair to everyone. at least try.

to the worst, im good.

to the good, im bad.

speechless. shant say more.

i swear its so freaky. after years i still see you in my dreams. and why are you still in them. please dont bother me anymore? i wake up, not feeling regretful or upset, but afraid and disgusted. stop haunting me? i dont wish to wake up on first day of sch to see sth so ridiculous. the more i say the more mean i'll get. so, just stop stalking, hearing, seeing, reading me. that's the last i'd ask of you.

yoz ppl so in conclusion, still ask me out. purely schooling is boring. will wanna see everyone of you every now and then. watch movies and go on shopping and eating dates w me please please please. cos im a girl without boyfriend. how sad. okay so text me naoooo! :)