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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty

HAIYA.

Friday, October 29, 2010 ( 11:24 PM )

walaoeh. like my sewing.. IS NOT DONE YET! im supposed to sew a blouse but it's taking me years. argh. i spent a day on that and i havent finish. fmlfmlfml.

tmr gonna do the stencil cut. the girls coming over to my poolside to do cut and printing. yepyep.

i got ccs essay and fm report. and i have this mag product page to do. i got textiles. fmlfmlfml. and i got v&p. fml even more.

i want to party but i cant. arghhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh FML.

my dad just smacked my ass from the back twice, thinking im my mom. wth -.- haha i thought it was my mom who smacked me. cute ah 2 of them. -.- they enjoy doing these kinda retarded stuff.

kkkk byebye.

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THOSE SHOES ARE..

Thursday, October 28, 2010 ( 9:13 PM )

THE SEX

TAKEN WITH TY'S AWESOME 5K CAM.

thoughts:

i think it's nice. eevann's inviting me to go to this ball w him. cos his gf is overseas. ahhahaha. like. so sweet luh. he tried to give excuses like nicole in uk, ah car in malaysia so he asked me. like im his last choice. HAHA then he said "kidding.. i thought of you next".

i think i like to be their best friend. eevann, clarence, elijah, paul, oli, irving, rayson, michael. they are all so awesome. even if they had a gf, even we've drifted; someday, sometime, i'll still rmb them all.

hohoho. taiyou's camera is awesome. even a lousy photographer like me can use auto like a pro. k tho some photos are not well-focused but still. love!

OH AND DID I TELL YOU, THE SONG IS AWESOME TOO. ENJOY!~ (irving was saying how a person like me dont look like i'll like this kinda song. it's bizarre tho. cos right up next is beautiful monster. i feel like i have spilt personality. HAW HAW HAW. but i told him, this is what you call, a balanced person. hehehe. bad yet good)

OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION. today mardy came to sch all teary. guess what: the boyfriend issue. i hate the way guys break a girl's heart. come on lah. dickheads shld just face it and speak the truth for god's sake, not be like some coward to avoid and lie? they're rly good at trying to be the good person who claim to have done nth to breakup. PLEASE. it's disgusting. and i almost forgot what happened until today. i shared my own experience with meiyen and shella. it was funny to think back. what could i have done w/o my friends and family back then?

but im kinda thankful too tho :) for that, i experienced and undergo the kind of pain which i would nv have known if i havent had one. haha. really. its like way before when i was a teenager, nth hurts like this. like i see puppies breaking up, i would always think why they do all the silly things they do. like, "breakup only mah? need to be so exaggerating meh?" now i know, i learn, i share.

part and parcel, they add to your knowledge and experience, it'll equipped you; life-long skills.

hope mardy will get over it soon.*

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( 2:03 AM )

ty says: (AM 02:01:06)

let me guess

ty says: (AM 02:01:11)

are u like

ty says: (AM 02:01:15)

posting on fb or sth

Shi says: (AM 02:02:04)

CAN YOU NOT KNOW ME SO WELL!!!!

Shi says: (AM 02:02:05)

HAHA

OMGGGGG. SMARTY PANTS.

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aaahhhssshhh

Wednesday, October 27, 2010 ( 11:07 PM )

what the hell is this. when all you can think about every sec every min every hr is just assignment after assignment. nth else. even the thought of partying, the projects just kill everything. ya.

when i think back about how i used to cry over stress back in sp, it's retarded. cos its nth compared to this.

bye.

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weird

( 4:11 PM )

its weird how my skin actl starts to peel NOW, after 2 wks i got burnt -.- zzz.

OH MAN I WANNA PARTY THIS WKEND COS IT'S HALLOWEEN.

HOW HOW HOW :(

THERE'S SO MUCH WORK TO DO.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

HOW! :(

sigh. why.

i.want.to.party.lah.

fuckmylife :(

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rain

( 2:27 AM )

it's raining again. i like it cos it actl feels like im not in sg. haha. it just feels different.

sheeeesh im slacking away. meiyen came over to do lino print today. well, she stayed till quite late and shortly after she left, i met zhihao and taiyou.

now im home blogging instead of doing my work. sigh. i feel like resting, i really do. i always have this feeling i cant finish my work. this saturday is halloween but i cant go out. i cant finish my work :( this sucks big time. sigh.

kk buaiz. i love the rain.

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thoughts

Tuesday, October 26, 2010 ( 1:26 AM )

its seriously random for a "friend" to talk to you after a few good years. esp when you havent exactly seen him in real life before. "hey did you perform for yog?" apparently he knows im in cheerleading when that's my cca in sp and not secondary sch? okay, then the mind will tell you he has a motive. whatever luh huh.

today was rather eventful for almost everyone arnd me. a hell lot of unlucky stuff happened. for me, i forgot to bring out my wallet. wth right -.- k nvm i still survive cos my keys and my ezlink are in another purse which i actl brought out. -.-

k im gg to do work. yes, work.

i realised i spam alot of photos w clement that day. and weihan's like why nv take photo w me that day. LOLOLOL.

kk will meet you when projects are done. i cant wait for this shit to be over. yes i know i repeat alot of times. but still.. please be over soonzzzx.

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THE FATS ISSUE

Sunday, October 24, 2010 ( 11:43 PM )

tai you's 21st.

OMFG. LOOK AT HOW FAT I AM. GRRRR.

i was looking through nana's sentosa photos.

ZOMG, I AM FAT.

WHY SO FAT????

EMO :(

im serious when i say my tummy starts to show

no more abs.

and i can barely fit into my denim shorts.

i was so happy last yr when i managed to lose weight to fit into my smallest denim shorts.

now?

i can dream on.

my thunder thighs becoming elephant thighs.

AHHHHHHHHH. OKOK. WHEN IM DONE WITH PROJECTS,

I MUST SERIOUSLY GO ON DIET.

today spent the whole day doing lino printing.

god.

SO GLAD IM DONE WITH IT.

AT LEAST ONE THING OFF MY MIND.

BUT.

i still got tons of work unfinished -.-

kk. wont rly go out unless there's a need to.

sorry guys, i rly miss yall.

I WANNA BE WATCHING MOVIE AND HANGING OUT.

BUT I CANT, YET.

PLEASE WAIT FOR MEEEE EVERYBODY...

alright, 4 more wks to go.

just whack!

I DONT WANNA BE FAT... :(

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FMLFMLFML

Saturday, October 23, 2010 ( 12:27 AM )

sigh a tough day just ended. we took photos of products for our styling module. i think im still lacking one or two products. BIG SIGH. i need to get stuff and borrow cam to do photoshoot again, and i need to photoshop and i need to do layout etc etc.

i need to do lino cut. the girls are coming over to my hse to do lino print on sunday.

i need to work tmr. for some event at ion as a dresser. and i need to bring textiles/sewing homework to do.

i need to finish up my ccs essay cos submission is next wk.

i need to start researching on my management essay cos im lacking a lot of stuff and i feel like im totally not on track and im gonna fail.

i need to do my v&p drawing of fashion figurines in illustrator with everything done.

i need to do mood board for styling and i need to do research file.

i need to do mood board for textiles.

i need to sew a blouse.

WHAT THE FUCK. I GOT SO MANY THINGS TO DO RIGHT?! NO LIKE IM MAKING THEM UP. THE THOUGHT OF THESE ASSIGNMENTS EVERYDAY ALONE COULD KILL ME ALREADY. I AM DEPRESSED. COS IF I FAIL ANY ONE OF THOSE SUBJECT, I HAVE TO REPEAT WHOLE YR.

FUCK MY LIFE....

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:D ?

Friday, October 22, 2010 ( 5:34 AM )

what the hell is ":D", seriously? the more i look at it, the more mad i get. like, im just this uh. tyvm. you shall be ignored as much as i wanna reply.

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Thursday, October 21, 2010 ( 11:25 PM )

SIGH. THIS SUCKS. ARGH. HATE IT. I WANNA GET OVER AND DONE WITH. BYE.

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sigh

( 12:20 AM )

WALAOEH. i just woke up from a 4 hr nap which wasnt even intentional. argh. i hate myself. im just not a night person. sian. ok im gonna start my 1000 word essay now. sighhhhh. bye bye sleep.

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counting down.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010 ( 5:55 PM )

SINGAPORE : The haze is back in Singapore, with the southwesterly winds blowing in the smoke from the fires in Sumatra.

hmmm, okay. haze. nice. it just adds on to my moodiness.

sometimes the r/s between ppl is just so puzzling. you know i can be looking at you or just right beside you. im just there. you're like ignoring almost all the time. well idk if thats on deliberate, like you dislike me, or you just cant be bothered and dont treat me as part of the group. honestly? initially i thought maybe im thinking too much. but slowly i realised, its not me. it's you. idk. but everything i do, im trying so hard alr. i shouldnt expect anything in return. but you're just taking and taking and it's kinda annoying me. maybe you think im stupid or bimbo so i dont know/realise. but i do, i can feel.

know what? im glad it's gonna end in 4 wks time, esp when im not gg into the same course of study as you. thank god.

probably for sucha self-centred person like you whom only share your stuff with ppl who'll benefit you, you're good. well all the best.

sigh 4 more weeks. im counting down.

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:(

Saturday, October 16, 2010 ( 4:47 AM )

im feeling a tad better but still as bad.

came home to do a bit of stitching before meeting my girls at dohby. we went to old school's timbre. the flight of stairs, is horrendous. argh. anyway, im rly happy to see them again. they make me happy. my happy pills :)

then we drank gong cha. my 2nd cup after ytd. FAT :(

i was super pissed. cos eevann refused to come dohby to pick me. he said there's erp. like wth seriously. i hate him. he pushed me to mark. then so i said NVM i go newton circle myself. then when i boarded the bus, benedict popped out beside me. such great coincidence. and so we were heading to newton circle tgt. then eevann called, saying he's at dohby with mark. like wth?! asked why i didnt pick up the phone earlier. (my phone was on silent, w/o vibration. my phone is another screwed up thing) k so first dont wanna pick me. then next come with mark. nice. then expect me to alight at DFS. and expect me to wait. trust me, i was damn angsty. ARGH.

thing is i was out only cos eevann said he was gg to _ with his gf. out of concern i wanna meet him. but he gave me all these shit. i was so tired after a day of sch, with so much work uncompleted, and he's doing all these. seriously. anyway, i forgive him.

mark and eevann each drove a car to newton circle. we chilled and went mustafa to get stuff for stacey. mark is forever full of crap and benedict is some cheapskate kid.

and, eevann sent me home. so then we had time to ourselves. i swear the pool area is a comfy place. well, if there was a 10 million diamond behind this mountain full of tigers, would you still go for it? i probably wont. cos i wont risk my life for diamond. but if it were what i like/love, i would. i'd probably try all ways and means but not to the extend i kill myself. yep.

k thanks eevann and also thanks elijah. you guys are bestest. (thanks i know i cutest)

please tell me im running out of time. stacey bday at sentosa and jeremy's at pasir ris. i will be shagged by night.

goodnight!

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sorry

Friday, October 15, 2010 ( 12:24 AM )

sometimes i think it might be good if i get some serious depression like siwei when i just keep eating and puking out whatever i eat. and i'll be really skinny. in that way i can rly cry out like a big baby.

woah i can imagine that.

sigh sorry for things which turned out the way they are now. i didnt mean to do the things i do.

(okay, is being paranoid a form of depression?)

i am a screwed up person on the whole. till just now when i talked to my mom. i could feel there's this distance. like we can nv be like before. cos afterall she did gave me a tight slap. not that im being revengeful or bear grudges. but it's just not quite the same anymore.

so perhaps somethings in life, no matter how hard you try to put them back in place, they just fail terribly. sometimes its so much better if you'd just leave it alone. ya, i think thats a cowardly behaviour. but that's to protect people's welfare. and self-protection from misery that one might cause.

sorry you two.

maybe i think too much but i dont wanna think about me doing that, it'll kill me more.

sorry.

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screw it

Thursday, October 14, 2010 ( 11:12 PM )

i screw up as usual. no point explaining at times, really. cos there's no straightforward and honest replies. so ya, 'whatever' and 'screw it' suits the situation.

i guess there isnt such a person whom you can joke with openly about it. so never joke, about lovin'

i just wasted a day, again. bye.

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IPHOTO AND CLOTHES LOVE.

( 10:02 PM )

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:(

Sunday, October 10, 2010 ( 3:19 PM )

shi hui shi hui. what's with you??? seriously? can you fucking put your life back on track. stop playing, stop procastinating, stop all the stupid nonsense.

AHHHHHHHHH... maybe i need some serious counselling.

i left my phone in the cab last night. felt super retarded. spent the whole night talking cock to the security guard. then while i was bathing this awesome brilliant idea struck me.

AND SO, INTELLIGENTLY i got my phone back this morning. thankgod, really. if not i'll have to get scolding from my mom and dad etc.

ytd i shld have stayed home. period. gonna do essay now. buaiz.

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no.1 slacker

Tuesday, October 05, 2010 ( 12:39 AM )

last wkend

pbff, ernest, maureen, taylor, (nydia), me - tabasco shots :/

marcus bday

TIME TO START WORKING MY ASS OFF AND PLAY LESS

I AM NO.1 SLACKER IN THE WORLD. feeling super lazy. but i gotta do work alr. if not in 5 weeks time, i will die a horrible death, such as failing the 1st sem and having to go back to lasalle to repeat the sem only next yr AUG. I DONT WANT TO WASTE TIME ANYMORE....

CLUBBING MAKES ME FEEL MORE AND MORE TERRIFIED OF MYSELF

i dont know how to put it. recently clubbing left me happier, but also more guilty. guilty of stuff which i wont normally do. and most of the time, i dont understand why im doing the things i do. WHY? idk. to sum it up, it feels good to feel wanted, but it sucks when you just think back like: WHAT THE HECK DID I DO AND WHY DID I DO THAT.

LIFE BEING SINGLE

single spells freedom. yes, sometimes the heart feels empty. but its impossible to just get anyone to fill that space right? sometimes i rly wonder how my mom can date so many guys and not like rly be in love with them. i dont think i can ever do that. but then again, if you dont date different guys, how would you know which suits you best? okay, sound pretty much like a player. idk la. single gives you the freedom to choose who you wanna be/hangout with. i dont want to get tied down cos we all know it's different when it comes to being in a r/s.

A VERY BUSY HUMAN ORIENTATED OCTOBER

tmr

- need to go to the library to do research and return books

- might be meeting eevann at 3

- need to collect my bag, and japanese snacks from sexaye at town

- meeting dajie etc at town for dinner

thurs

- need to meet stacey to get present for irving's bday

fri

- need to attend irving's 21st at changi chalet

sat

- need to meet zhihao to get stuff

- need to accompany raymond to HIS friend bday party -.-

NEXT WK:

- xuan's bday just passed. have to meet girlfriends.

- jeremy's bday party on sat. stacey's too.

RAHHHHHHHHHHH! I GOT NO TIME TO DO WORK ALR LAH! WTF I AM STUPID GIRL. SIGH. KK BUAIZ.

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