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shopping again.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010 ( 12:06 AM )

the pair of pretty vans my bro bought for me. loves.

shopping with eunice :)

super miss her.

soup spoon

THIS WEDGE FROM ZARA IS SO PRETTY!!! 229BUCKS.

tell me who the hell in the right mind will buy? :(

i bought a mickey crop top and black skirt and pump shoes.

heheheh.

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family

Tuesday, September 28, 2010 ( 2:32 AM )

family is the reason why we all exist.

so much happened within a week. i cant imagine life w/o him or anyone in the family. they mean so much to me. been living life for 20 years and so much happened within this small family of mine. yes, i admit some families are so screwed up that mine is seriously nth as compared to theirs. but i guess every family has their tough times. in this life so far, there's roughly one incident which happened to each of them that i wont ever forget. when my dad was in trouble, my mom didnt tell us cos we were young. but i sensed it, i found out, i hugged my mom and cried that faithful night. my mom was suspected of cancer, and i saw that lost soul in her, it felt like i could have lost her anytime back then. my bro has always been the worrying one. always getting injured, made my mom cried when he created trouble during PSLE, create trouble in sch, now this.

he's still experiencing chest pains and headaches/giddy spells. sigh. everytime i look at him, i see invincible injuries. it feels like, they're always there. i hate that feeling. i want him to be okay, i want him to be fine; perfectly fine and very healthy.

im worried.

paranoid much. but this is me. and mom was telling me about my paternal cousin having divorced. and the other maternal side gave birth to a newborn baby. both matters tho one is bad and the other seems good, they created unhappiness in the whole family including grandparents/great grandparents. i dont understand. relatives cant be frank with each other? and cant they be more sensitive about each other's feelings? i guess we human beings are just selfish. and we care too much about pride. idk. either way, i sound like im being rational, but maybe im not. (they could be protecting their own small lil family too?) cos i might have do the same if i were them. but then again, i wont ever, or shld i say, i will try my best to make everything work, right from the start, right from the moment/way way before i start a family.

well, in anyway, what my mom said is right, that family will be FOREVER. whether you like it or not, you just have to stick to it, cos it's YOURS, TRUTHFULLY YOURS. family forgive and forget, time and time again, and they'll never ever forsake you.

that's family. that's my definition of family.

i figure thats the reason why i was so serious about bgr. cos i was convinced that he could be the one and i treated him like family. therefore when he left, it felt like i was crippled and i lost someone so dear to me. those were nights when i would tremble in fear for i dont know what would come my way, and i would dream of what wouldnt ever happen. i took you for granted.

that's what families do. take each other for granted, until one day when sth threatening happen.. you learn, i learn, everyone learn.

so, in case you havent figure, i love my family. and i'll treasure them at my bestest.

tues, 11.45pm

my bro's playing dota, having the best time of his life -.- and my dad just came back. we're all so eager to listen to his full detailed happening story.

we're all here for you. so brother, tell us, are you ready?

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stuck

Saturday, September 25, 2010 ( 2:01 AM )

im still having mixed feelings.

been trying to cheer myself up alot, but the matter just wont leave my mind.

anyway, was out with wanlin :) hahaha shes damn cute. we spent alot of time sharing with each other, like how afraid she is, to not have any bf till today. but if you think my expectations of a bf is high, then hers is like unattainable i would say. LOL. rly had quality time. maybe cos it was just e 2 of us.

then F1 yesyes rainy day. we were on flyer. and we walked damn alot. my ear drums almost break and my legs broke. haha. super ear drum and leg breaking experience. watched daughtry performance too. awesome :) well it gets boring after awhile watching cars zoom past one after another. but i guess it was a once-in-a-lifetime kinda experience. didnt have a pro camera. used paul's friend's second hand camera. how pathetic. haha. really. oh well. will get photos from him soonz and upload.

AHHHHHHHH. I NEEDA STOP THINKING. SIGH.

nightez.

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i guess

Friday, September 24, 2010 ( 12:40 AM )

there's too many thoughts going through my mind now. and i guess, im still glad to say all's fine.

my brother is okay. tho im still abit worried. details im lazy to type here. you'll know if you met me this wk, or text me.

only a few truely understand how i feel i guess. one of them is my cousin. i got the reaction i would have if it were to happen to her bro instead (choy). disbelief.

the only thing which cheered me up abit was that i met my cousin today. after sucha long time, we managed to catch up. we had this skinny pizza at raffles city shopping centre. it was awesome and we had this sausage. which was 1/2m long and cost us 13 bucks. -.- k v unique dinner indeed. my 2nd round of dinner. i was oh so damn very full!!!!!

my cousin drove. how cool. HER CAR. sianzx. i wanna have my own car too. sigh.

today is just not my day. i wasnt in the mood for anything. quite fucked up. i was so distracted. and i ate so much. im gonna grow really fat. sigh. im super emo now.

im gonna get my bro a new wallet. cos it was partly my fault that i didnt tell him he shldnt bring so much money out at one go. sigh. well, just in case you guys dont know. as much as i quarrelled and fought with my bro a hell lot when we were younger, i dote on and love my bro alot. and im sure he feels the same. cos he agreed to buy vans shoes and pretty ear piece for me. yeah, so we're pretty cool with each other.

and zhihao just wanna keep talking about A when im talking abt B. i hate him. sigh.

nightz.

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HELLO YOU

Thursday, September 23, 2010 ( 10:43 AM )

helloooo ppl.

ytd morning was a screwed up day. thanks to the apple hotline and my mom who couldnt get over the spoilt cordless phone and put the blame on me, even till today. hate it.

BUT afternoon was good. i met elijah. hehehehe. happy girl i am, again. havent seen him for like frigging 2 months! so! we chilled at popeyes and we took a train back to sembawang tgt.

1. virgin trip to his house. hahahah.

2. virgin ride on his car. hahahah.

he dropped me off at michael's hse. which was really really near. he insisted on giving me a ride, thinking that it was inconvenient. LOL. that's elijah for you. (YES, ELIJAH, I CHECKED. YOU'LL BE BACK ON 4TH OCT. TEXT ME WHEN YOU'RE BACK FROM CHEENA OKAY.)

so like tues night i was at yishun, then wed i was at sembawang and woodlands. whats wrong with me right. haha. my homies are all staying in the north area, my old hometown.

i think sometimes i get so used to town that i just get so lazy to even go downtown. im kinda always in town -.- my home is here, my sch is here, the whole world is here. LOL. except my homies. k this is kinda bad. im getting lazy.

then this poor guy with the cast, i had to serve him. but i felt rly bad for getting him to come out. (k by right he's not allowed to come out. but by left, he's out) and i hope the cold temp doesnt cause any side effects on his hand or what. we watched going the distance. I THINK IT'S A SHOW ESP FOR HIM. cos of some cheena :)

on the way back home i was quite scared. cos i rmb what elijah told me abt his friend's fingers got chopped off by some whoever whatever. i didnt know singapore would be so dangerous. god dammit. i was rly freaked out for the first time. I BETTER NOT GO HOME ALONE SO LATE NEXT TIME. I AM DAMN SCARED. like some scary cat. what if i get killed when in the first place i've no $$ for them.

and ytd i overshot. i alighted at newton. walao. how blur can i get. seriously....

OMG MY GRANDMA JUST CALLED TO CHECK UP ON MY WHOLEEEE FAMILY. SO SWEET. but sian, ytd was mid autumn festival. aiya everyone die liao la. tsk. i'll always rmb the times when grandma said she would bring us to china. i guess in a few years time it'll be our turn to bring grandma overseas. loves.

k im meeting nydia dear later. i think i see her like thrice this wk.

OKAY GOD DAMMIT. i think my bro just created trouble again in school. either that or sth happened to him in US. some guy from sp just called. i hope it's nth serious. my bro thinks he's damn smart when he try to put his mobile number as my dad's number, thinking they wont ever reach my dad that way. lame. that person was smart enough to call my home to ask for my dad's number. K BETTER NOT BE ANYTHING SERIOUS.

meeting my cousin at night. bye! :)

WTF. MY DAD JUST CALLED TO TELL ME MY BRO GOT ROBBED AND GOT KNOCKED OUT. HE'S IN THE HOSPITAL NOW. FREAKING HELL. HE MUST HAVE CARELESSLY FLASHED HIS CASH OR SOME SHIT. IDIOT. OMFG. HE BETTER BE FINE.

FUCK. STUPID SHITHEAD ROBBER. ARGHHHHHH. IM PISSED WITH THE ROBBER AND VERY WORRIED ABOUT MY BRO AT THE SAME TIME. time now shld be night time over at US. really pray and hope my bro is fine. omg shit shit shit. GRRRRRR.

kk bye. i hope my mom will be okay when she gets the piece of news.

FUCK IT.

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HAPPY HAPPY UP UP

Monday, September 20, 2010 ( 9:01 AM )

THIS WK, STARTING WED, WILL BE MY OFFICIAL HOLIS. I DONT CARE IF I WERE TO STAY HOME TO DO HOMEWORK FOR MY PROJECT WK. I DONT GIVE A DAMN. COS I WAS WORKING SO HARD, I STAYED UP FOR NIGHTSS, I FELL ASLP COUNTLESS TIMES ON MY LAPTOP, I FELL SICK, I WAS IN BED FOR DAYSSS, I HAD STOMACH FLU, I HAD TERRIBLE HEADACHE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, THE LOO BECAME MY SECOND HOME, I DIDNT GET TO ENJOY THE WKEND; AT ALL.

(i just went to the loo, again)

yay! anyway, this wk i see tons of adventures coming my way! hehehe. and i've just sent out many many texts this morning, at 7 plus, to those whom i havent seen and have missed for a long long time.

i am a happy girl :)

so if i havent seen you for a long long time and you didnt receive any text from me, text me instead?

OKAY, i've decided to get paul to watch the F1 race with me! :) he never forgets me, and i mean never, so far. (not sure about after all the uni work kicks in tho) and also on behalf of the fact that he got me a nice scarf from vietnam the other time :)

(this triggers me to think back about benedict who goes: "HEY OMG SHI HUI YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL. YOU KNOW BEAUTIFUL PPL SHLD INVITE BEAUTIFUL PPL LIKE ME TO GO WATCH F1 WITH YOU. RIGHT, BEAUTIFUL?" HAHAHAHAHAHA. WTH. he just went like beautiful yada yada throughout the phonecall. HAHAHAHA. IDIOT.)

THIS WK IS SO IMPT.

1. I NEED MY NEW CAMERA TO TAKE PICTURES. ( i forced my bro to bring the st 550 to US)

2. I NEED MY NEW MACBOOK PRO. (i wanna have everything done before sch start next wk)

urm, I NEED TO BUY TONS OF NEW SHOES! my shoes are all like, KNS. can throw all if i wanted to. BUT NO CLOTHES, STRICTLY NO CLOTHES. i have been banned. and yes i havent shopped for 2 months. cant believe it right? me either.

SHIT I JUST REALISED THIS IS SO LAST LAST LAST SEASON:

PAIRING SOCKS WITH HEELS -.- but it's nice!

I DONT DARE TO PAIR SOCKS WITH WEDGES HAHAHAH.

HAIYO I FORGOT I WANTED TO HAVE PERMED HAIR.

I WENT TO TRIM MY HAIR SO SHORT.

hope xioayu has kinda settle in manchester and is crazy with all the shopping right now :D

RAYSON CUTE BOY

i've been reading kathe's blog. and taiyou has told me this before. i guess when everyone hit either 19 or 20, esp when they're graduating, one thing they will never fail to be concern with: the future. some of us choose to avoid, some of us ignore, some of us hope, some of us pray. i guess the future right now is still full of uncertainties, esp with regards to what we gonna do next. to speak the truth i still dont know if i made the right choice. all i know is that, i wanna go japan to study quite badly. idk why. i like everything about japan. tho i've nv been there b4. i cant speak their language either. so i know nuts. but it's just like cool. i think i shld seriously go pick up some jap language class(it's so tough, and i've bad memory) if meiyin is gg jap to study for her BA I WANNA GO TOO... HAHAHA. likey. one thing holding me back: $$$ issue. like super waste money :(

wa sian, i feel like taking pole dance classes too. haiyo!! stupid girl.

EH recently ppl have been calling me like some party girl or what. zomg. im not can? tsk. but again, i think im gg on wed :/ shittttttttt.

yay yay yay IDK WHY BUT IM SUPER EXCITED. im discussing with wanlin about meeting her this fri for lunch. i cant wait for fri to come!!!! lunch movie.

then f1 dinner and i want movie again!

OMG I AM HAPPY GIRL. but for today and tmr, i will be studious girl. im gonna do my drawings now and then meet the rest in sch tmr to do homework also. goodbyez~~~~

sometimes, i wish there was this device. which you can use to detect how ppl feel about you. then you know, so many things will be known w/o being said. how great, no guessing game. i likey. but ohwell.

i think i need a lil love sometimes, just a lil bit. will you give me some today?

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god punish me

( 12:17 AM )

ahhhhh, been to the toilet thrice. sucks to be me.

well, today was kinda.. idk what. we went to marina bay prom to WATCH hundreds of families fly kites, see the kids running arnd desperately in hope to fly their kites into the skies, witness all the strings get entangled with each other, and many as such.

nice place tho. and we headed to bugis for some meat meal -.- the guys are still abstaining from carbos?! aiya whatever. anw i couldnt rly take it after the dinner. so i got home early. I SHLD HAVE BROUGHT MY MEDICINE OUT. SOBSS. god punish me for not taking medication and always gg out instead of staying home. sigh.

well today's company was good. thankyou taiyou for sending us all home, as always :)

and, rayson called again just now. this time i picked up! really, tell me, where to find such nice guy. extinct alr lah.

k i needa slp. if not god will punish me for staying up :( night!

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getting better

Sunday, September 19, 2010 ( 1:02 PM )

oh man, i feel rly bad. rayson has been trying to reach me since, i think thurs night? but everytime he call, i'll be slping alr cos im seriously so sick that whenever the clock strikes 9, i would just reach for the bed. man, he's sucha sweet guy. like, he's in camp yet he's always calling me up to check up on me. I NEED TO FIND HIM A UBER NICE GF. hahaha. seriously! tell me where to find a guy like him.

well, my super cute bro just left for the airport less than an hour ago. he's gg to US. like ZOMG. i havent been there? man, i shld go there someday. i got him to get me a keyboard protector and a case for my macbook pro. sheesh. i wanted a hardshell case. but its okay. i'll see what he get me. he's so tiny, he can fit into my sweater. it's ladies cut -.- k but it looks nice on him, for some reason. like nicer than on me -.-

my grandma just called to ask if we're gg to her hse to eat at night. i told her my parents are, but not me and my bro. my bro left for us and im gg out :( sigh i feel bad. but it's okay. next wk i'll be gg to grandma's place!!!! promise! :)

k i gotta go get ready and leave hse soon. i hope my stomach doesnt act up on me. i needa go kino to get some magazines and daiso to get some threads. then kite flying with nydia babe, zhihao, and ty.

k buaizzzz.

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sick

Friday, September 17, 2010 ( 10:03 PM )

im down with stomach flu? didnt go to sch today. so much unfinished work. and despite seeing the doctor and taking medication, i still feel pain. why why why. sucks to be me.

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what.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010 ( 10:14 PM )

FFFFFFFFF! for a moment i thought i didnt save what i did just now when i was out with atikah. i could have committed suicide. like jump down the building or sth. okay but i found it. phew.

FM=FML really.

and school work is killing me. when was the last time i go to bed w/o falling aslp in front of the com. sucks to be me. i dont like the workload.

byez. i shall go die. wait till friday arrive, i hope i'll be free and not emo over other stuff. now my stomach is so so so bad. again. sigh. sucksssssssssssssssssss. i hate everything. bye.

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one of the best wkends ever.

Sunday, September 12, 2010 ( 11:53 PM )

this wkend was awesome, i swear. i spent time with ppl whom i havent seen for ages, as well as those usual few.

ya know, wed i went clubbing despite the fact i had sch the next morning at 9.30am. i party till morning 5plus? goodness. I.AM.MAD. but it was fun. ppl are always having tons of fun making fun of me -.-

so thurs night, was rly good. well-spent with mahanas. even tho i was quite upset a few just disappeared and also upset over the fact that good times pass so fast, and we're all moving on, working towards our own future. i guess that's life (yes i've been repeating). xiaoyu's leaving for manchester soonz. sigh.

then friday, i stayed home to do work for abit, wenzhen and dajie came over to swim at arnd 2plus. it was drizzling! so damn freaking cold! but feels rly good to be in water once again. but my body felt like collapsing. cos the night before i was doing sewing. i barely slept for 5 hours? my limbs are like weak alr.

nevertheless met zhihao sweetheart, ty and nydia princess for steamboat dinner at crystal jade holland v. oh so very full! like, despite the fact i always say im getting fat, i just eat non-stop :( depressed.

we went town and then to yewtee point HK cafe (yes, HK cafe again). 3 guys and 2 girls chilled till like 12plus. home. did my sewing again! till like 5am. slept only a few hrs.

up on sat i saw myself doing my documentation for sewing. met xiaoyu and stacey at night. went to holiday inn to get drinks and god. on the way to arena, xiaoyu puked on herself in ck's car :( i felt rly bad to make her drink? cos the whole purpose was to go clubbing with her before she leaves for manchester and there she is, puke all over her dress, she had to go home :( and rayson's virgin trip to the club. ernest made him drink! big bully. rayson was kinda gone but back by the time we went home -.- the night was fun but also not quite fun? ohwell.

my sunday was spent doing documentation and ccs ppt. tmr there's presentation. sigh. so much work to do!!!

there's so many ppl im supposed to meet this coming wk. minimum 5 of them. but i rly dont know how im gonna squeeze time out. argh. i suck.

tons of submission this coming wk. kill me pls. k photos on fb. i totally love this wkend. just that the few slping hours every and those crazy nights out will soon drive me crazy.

work as it is, mad and messy

extras: last sunday my mom made choc cupcakes!

zhihao: "waaa, you xiao dian yin" (waaa, abit hard)

ty: "okay what, if there's milk, then good."

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why so quiet.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010 ( 4:54 AM )

okay look at the time now. 4:52am. what the heck is wrong with me right. haha. okay, thing is i fell aslp on my comp and i just woke up. i gotta think of what i wanna present for fashion management: the next big thing this coming spring/summer 2011. ahhhhh, tell me this is tough. gawd.

i suddenly feel quite emo-ish. maybe it's the quiet night. last night i saw this 3 alphbet thing signed in, i managed to ignore it. phew. i need to ignore, i need to ignore.. but i dont know. when that bday is nearing, i might do sth stupid again. i hate myself. okay i wont do it(i hope).

that aside, I MADE MY VERY FIRST SKIRT JUST NOW IN SCHOOL! OMGZXZ. THAT WAS SO TOUGH! but i did it. hahahahaha.

and i met ty for dinner.

that's about all. this week is party week and nth is gonna stop me! first i needa clear all my assignments. which is due, next wk? hahaha. k way to go, jiayou to myself.

sian, i wanna watch movie. im quite deprived..

k gotta go do work. buaiz.

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PIAKK

Sunday, September 05, 2010 ( 2:01 PM )

shihui. stbm says:

HAHA

tsk

just do flips then burst right

CLEM says:

yahlah!

hahaha

i go do one open leg one

then in the air havent reach the water PIAK

shihui. stbm says:

HAHAHA

WTH

upload video i sure like

guys' bottoms always tear in the gusto context. HAHAHAHAHAHA..

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bye

Thursday, September 02, 2010 ( 10:55 PM )

another day, im feeling like shit. sigh. why.

im trying so hard to accept. but why is it at the end of the day i still become the loser.

dont bother me and i wont bother you. i shld start to live by that now. cos im tired.

bye.

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to the guy who like mahfan girls

( 1:21 AM )

http://hubpages.com/hub/STEPSOn-How-to-Cure-a-Stomach-Ache

gogogo

•Try your best not to think about your stomach, sometimes just forgetting about it will make it go away.

•One old trick is to drink sugar salt water. To make this all you have to do is get a glass of water, and put about a teaspoon of salt and sugar in the water. It tastes nasty, but a lot of times it works wonders. If it doesn't work, it isn't your normal stomach ache.

•Try holding a piece of ice - it will take all of the concentration off your stomach.

When you lie down make sure your feet are placed in a higher level than the rest of your body and provide some pillows under your feet and it will really alleviate the pain

like some witch doctor..

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BANG BANG.

( 1:13 AM )

k this is my bangs comeback.

ZOMG, my gastric been giving me problems.

now my stomach???

i hate it.

seriously, what the hell is wrong???

heal me or kill me pls :(

i've been slping for 12 hrs the past 2 nights.

why does it feel like i'll just disappear?

sucks to be me, really.

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