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bad girl

Saturday, July 10, 2010 ( 2:11 AM )

sigh, im supposed to be a rly good girl, but i cant be. cos it's just me. i like to have things my way, im stubborn and i love to have fun. if my parents tried to stop me, i would go ahead. i rmb there was once i almost like run away from home. ALMOST, but i didnt. that was how serious it was. but im glad to say i havent cross that line.

BUT AGAIN, when i was pri one, my mom didnt allow me to go out, but i insisted. i brought my maid along. LOL! to my best friend's house. i havent left home w/o mom before. that was the first time i went to my friend's house. when i was 7! couldnt believe i did that. i rmb my grandparents knew about it and they were so worried and they nagged. i guess that left a pretty deep impression on them.

having said that, somehow im still glad, i know my limits. even when i was 15 and 16, i mixed with bad company, but i didnt turn bad. they smoked, i didnt. the most i did was to stay out till morning. i knew clearly what i was doing.

to me, i think it's perfectly fine to be rebellious at this age? cos, rules are meant to be broken anyway and it's good to be flexible. as long as we know what we're doing, i think that's enough. and yes, i agree it's selfish on my part to only think about my own enjoyment and neglect the part on my parents might be worried about me. but i guess it's part of the growing up process, cos parents wont be there to protect you forever. we'll all be grown-ups someday. and be responsible for our own lives.

well, im lucky in a sense, my parents give me alot of freedom after i turned 17. i rly appreciate that. my dad is naturally more worried for me than my mom. and i rly like that thought. beginning when i go home late, my dad would call to ask what time im coming home. but as time passes, he stopped. tho at times he'll still ask me the next morning where i've been the previous night.

till today, im still telling half lies. but as long as im home safely, im being responsible. and that would appease my parents :)

okay, and about clubbing. im speechless. i think to most its as bad as taking drugs? ohwell, i rly like the activity. sorry to say. sigh. k clubber or whatever, i dont give a damn anymore. cos everytime i deny ppl will make noise also. if gg once every fortnight also counted then so be it? i give up.

and im kinda prepared to be single for at least another yr or so. bring it on!

went prawning with frankie, huimin, and kaykay just now. 4 girls prawning is rly funny. and frankie kept aiming the prawns at me -.- i think its just me, cos i didnt catch a single one?!!! omg. fail! k another sinful meal. im getting fat!!!! ARGH.

then wanted to go club but ahwell, DIDNT IN THE END. SIAN TTGM. ohwell, sorry for desperately wanting to go. girls just wanna have fun.

so here i am home. k gg to bed. tmr im working morning shift. im prepared to stay till a later time.

AHHHHH AND WHY DONT PPL JUST UNDERSTAND, IF THEY DONT GIVE YOU THEIR NUMBER, MEANS THEY ARE NOT INTERESTED!!! SIGH. STOP TRYING.

and, ytd i was damn fucking pissed. but i figured the working world is like that. but i still wanna say she's a total bitch. the sight of her irks me and today i was supposed to go lunch break with her. i lied saying i was meeting my friend. i went shopping and ate bread instead. yes shopping :/ shitzx. sighhh. i feel like some puppet. i have to act friendly and fake a smile on my face everytime i see her. deep down, i rly hate her.

1 OR 2 MORE WEEKS, IM OUTTA WISMA. gotta start my losing weight session. go running and swimming. and i need some tan too... and yes, diet. i need to be in tip top condition when i start sch.

k goodnight!

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