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Wednesday, June 23, 2010 ( 12:32 AM )

recently i've been undergoing tremendous mood swings. my mood changes drastically within a short time..

like im happy cos today at work, i learnt alot of stuff which are very useful for my future course of study. i realised fashion design is sth like product design. the material colour and finishing, the mood, the story behind the piece of clothing, the persona, just everything! jeffrey showed me this look book. man.. it's so impressive. now i truely believe we're not only paying for the brand, but also the quality.

well, if you're thinking who's jeffrey. he's the biggest here at aj scotts. im rly impressed by the amount of things he know about fashion itself. today we were so bored. knowing that im gg to take fashion design, he told me all the stuff which might be related and damn, i think they are all so very good. he isnt as strict as i thought he would be (the rest said he would flare up and pick on everyone esp when he's in a bad mood) k maybe he's in a good mood recently. he kinda joke with me and i think he's okay luh :)

i love the job im doing now. tho sometimes it gets rly very boring and sometimes i just blur out -.- it's still good.

then im unhappy cos i think i got this low self esteem thing which bugs me alot. esp when im becoming fatter these days :( im rly scared? soon, im gonna outgrow my clothes. IM NOT KIDDING (THUNDER THIGHS). when im upset, *esp when i can't forget es (seriously someone kill me please?), i just eat alot? even when im not upset, i still eat alot cos I LOVE FOOD. the thought of gg on diet simply... make me damn depressed. and im soooo lazy to hit the gym these days. i dont even swim or tan now.

then my face. it's not getting any better in any way. I HATE YOU STUPID FACE WITH MANY MANY WHITE HEADS AND PIMPLES AND REDNESS >:(

AIYA, just nothing is good about my body. my stomach gets crazy these days damn easily. idk why and how but it just happens.

WHY AINT I PRETTY/HOT. SIGH. hate myself more than ever.

anw, this guy working for agnes bay at scotts istean is rly quite cute eh. and.. TODAY I BUMPED INTO HIM WHEN I WAS RUSHING TO WORK, HE STARED AT ME AND SORTA GAVE ME THIS COOL/AWKWARD SMILE. actl for a moment i was thinking who was that staring. then i realised, its the agnes bay guy. haha, cute. so i just smiled back (awkwardly too). i rmb wei ning said he's like considered the cutest guy on the whole lvl of mens department. HAHAHA funny. sorry, we're both single anyway! i mean wei ning and i.

OKAY LA FATGURL_90@HOTMAIL.COM signing off. night!

I WANNA PARTY LAHHHHHHHHHHHH! :(

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