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Wednesday, March 17, 2010 ( 1:32 AM )

SIGH, I MISS HIM? okay this is rly retarded. dajie, wenzhen and eunice are gonna kill me. (kill me pls) like it's rly obvious he was just playing/flirting. ARGH STUPID BRAIN, YOU GOTTA START WORKING AND KICK THE HEART'S FEELINGS AWAYYYY. i guess all i need is a lil time and plenty of stuff to keep me occupied. I NEED A JOB SO BADLY!!!

okay now the reason to that sudden desperate-ness to work or rather earn $:
1. i need to kill time
2. it's time to widen my circle of friends
3. MOST IMPORTANTLY, I NEED TO START SAVING UP FOR A CAR!

my dad just refuse to get me a car. I WANT ONE SO BADLY. k so you see im not spoilt afterall cos i dont always get what i want. SIGH. i cant wait anymore. i needa START to save up. IM GONNA BE REAL STINGY WITH MY SPENDING NOW ON :/ and i will get my first 2nd hand volkswagen beetle (white) within 2 years NO MATTER WHAT. that's my goal in life for now. that's provided i get into local uni. if not, im gg overseas. and that thought just puts me off. i hate it. well i'll still take whatever that comes my way and maybe that's the route im meant for?

i was thinking of taking up part time fashion design course at raffles institute during the biggg break and maybe pole dance too. so many things so lil time! :(

and regarding cheer. we're like 3 days away from comp, i dont know where we're heading. but one thing for sure, no matter what, the best we can do, is to do our coaches proud, to do SP proud, to do ourselves proud, by making the fallen last yr be the king this yr. i guess nth can beat that now. if we lose our only motivation or are affected by external causes like judging etc, we're goner. we're all fighting for a cause, so no trival matter shld affect us. it's the brain/logical thinking over heart/morals, but also a win-win situation cos we're doing everyone proud by achieving our goal. no one will look down on US ALL. seriously who cares about the process during competition? audience will only applaud you for what you put up and not how much effort you've put in on your road to success. to them, result is the best prove. yes we've enjoyed trngs, we've worked hard, we've tried our best. but what are we if we dont win? by winning we complete fully the task we're given to fulfil and we make history. fact is reality is harsh and we all have to deal with it. whether or not accepted, it is gonna happen/has happened, so why not accept it? one last thing, the world goes on. and it doesnt matter if one person is gone cos the other will be born. it's about making history, making "legends". so have you made it/are you going to?

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