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the feeling suck when you make someone so dear to you mad. sigh. im starting to realise i gotta be more sensitive and not so stubborn? i have to hear it from ivan before i realise all that. i guess it's pretty much the truth. my mom thinks im real stubborn too and unless i change/try to tone down, my next bf is also just gonna leave me, for that reason. the way i treated my ex was like outrageous, now that i think back. HAHA. oh well everyone makes mistakes and they learn from it. i dont know if im supposed to trust guys as much now. but one thing for sure there's still this barrier which i cant seem to overcome cos i swear the feeling of losing someone is like SHIT. okay no, to be exact, HELL. good thing those days are over. i rather hang or float on the sea than to go to hell.

anw other than that, im rly happy cos I DROVE MY DAD'S BM back from gran's place! okay the adjusting of seat alone has like 10 buttons/arrows?! like the seat go by angle/degree. and the park/drive and left and right signal are so different! my dad was like, that's why it's so expensive!! -.- when i learn driving i only drove mitsubishi lancer! i only need to pull the metal bar below to adjust the seat. when i held the steering wheel and turned, i was like WOAH, how come i steer abit turn so much alr. haha like some noobcake. my dad replied, DUH, BM engine v powerful. then he kept asking me to drive slow. if not will lose control of the car. which i feel is damn true. cos i did some booboo. (MY IDIOTIC BRO MADE DAMN ALOT OF NOISES, LIKE ASK ME TO GO FASTER -.-) i checked blind spot then i didnt see the road infront and the car went zigzag! HAHAHA omg. then there was this exit at the highway, i forgot to check mirror and i changed lane. almost banged the car behind. LOL.... omg. and my turning suck? my dad need to guide me down the spiral road and outside our condo the sharp turn, i merely overshot abit and dad wants to change seat alr. cos i would have brushed the kerb or sth. i hate TURNS. sigh. BUT ITS DAMN FUN. i wanna do that every sunday to familiarise with the car.

well my parents were in a good mood today. so i asked if they could get me a car. my mom as usual, said NO cos i havent start working, yada yada. so i just ignore her. cos eventually it'll be my dad who get me one, if he does that is. anw, my dad said no too. cos he's worried. he said wait till im familiar with the roads and the carparks cos it's damn mahfan and hard to find. and he thinks i wont use it much and the car will spoil/rot -.-

nvm for my own good, i'll just drive my dad's car every sunday to grans place. and then maybe i can start getting ppl like clarence to come my place and sit beside me in the car before i start off and we can go eat supper at night when my dad doesnt need the car. EXCITING..

somehow my dad has this thing which i admire. he's worried abt my safety and stuff(as he reasoned) and i listen to him. i like the way he reason with me. unlike my mom.... effing naggy and nonsensical in my opinion. like i'll roll eyes at what she says. okay i behave like spoilt brat but rly, i dont respect my mom. when my mom scolds me, i challenge her. when my dad scolds me, i keep quiet. thats the diff.

and today i tried making strawberry cheesecake! woohoo. tho it doesnt look nice. but its still in the fridge, will try tmr when it sets fullyyy.

swam today too! my ankle hurts still. sucks when i cant kick breast stroke. sigh. ankle would you pls be better..


tmr im watching movie with huiqi! :)


so, was i wrong to ass-u-me? but when i piece it up, it seems like the truth. ohwell. maybe i was wrong. sorry. i dont know, really. its the barrier thing. i'll miss you.

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