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atikah's gonna finish her paper tmr at 5pm... HAPPYYY :D (i will only be done with everything on 9 dec tho)


i love the way my life is right now. i get all the freedom i want, and life's pretty much back to normal, like, what's normal right... hahaha. i just like it this way. okay hopefully 6 months and it shall be it. :) no more emo shitty days.


CANT WAIT FOR HOLS TO COME.. i wished someone offer me zouk out tickets/ jio-ed me. LIKE, EXXXXCITING UH. hahaha. nvm another year. well, i just cant wait to party. *WINKS AT EUNICE. HAHAHAHA.


WOOHOO, 2010 is coming.




im going crazy.. really soon. argh, damn super frustrated with rhino. I. HATE. 3D. MODELLING.




im rly rly rly tired these days? god knows why. i feel like just hanging out in the day, and come home for dinner every night, and be couch potato, then to bed. that's the kind of life i wanna lead? i dont want to be one of the counterparts on online social networking anymore. im sick and tired of everything. (but why the hell am i still blogging right?)

i really wanna do my fyp well. but i dont have the motivation to do so? stupid brain. arghhh.

time is running out, so tell me now, WILL I PULL THROUGH THIS. man... i gotta buck up. NINE DECEMBER, AND IM FREE.

FREE TO PARTY, DRINK, DANCE, SING, SLEEP, PLAY, HAVOC, STONE, BE COUCH POTATO, BE CRAZY, BE FREE!!! whatever.



MY ENERGY IS ALMOST DRAINED BY NOW, AND I F***ING HATE IT. I wished i was like zhihao. anything that comes his way, he would easily pull off with a joke/smile. right now, i just hope for everything to end, hols to come, and i can meet ppl like reb, nydia, zhihao, raymond.



im exhausted, but i still wanna add on sth. i think my bro's rly cute, but somehow, his hair looks like YOU KNOW WHO.

THE SIDE BURN. SO LIKE HIS.


I LIKE THIS PHOTO.


RED POUTY LIPS, LIKE GIRL'S. hahahahaha.



HIS HARDWORKING LOOK.


i think i would fall for guys with this kind of boyish look. still, my bro is hopeless. cos he is damn ZAI. like stay-home-dota boy next door.

and...... i got these photos from his friend, darren's fb? :/ i kope them.


okay, wenzhen saw my bro photo on my phone. not v clear, but roughly she commented, is this your brother? he looks like you. then i think he must be quite cute too. HAHAH.


that's all folks. will get down to serious work. wont be blogging till then. tata.




shihui. OHYES, says:
rly
i dont need ______, or a new him now
i only need
a brainwash machine
seriously

Rebecca Koh says:
hahax
hmm
i dunno where to get u that
lol

shihui. OHYES, says:
so tell me how
sigh
get a car to bang me

Rebecca Koh says:
-.-
siao




tag replies:

weihan, sorry luh. hahaha. will TRY to work out too. dont worry. hahaha.

nydia! im much better alr. can walk, but still abit swollen and cant rly flex or rotate. <3 you plenty :D

dom! haha your healing hands will worsen it i bet. yesyes i will tc. thanks. you guys needa take care during trng too. and i saw the video last night, you guys did well for sports day. GOOD JOB GUSTO! :D hahaha.





FINALLY, my dad came back on wed. the first thing i asked him was.. to get me htc hero! but he shoved the brochure aside and said "what phone is this? just get an iphone. then later on can sell." -.- and so,

I GOT IT JUST MOMENTS AGO :)

sound like some mountain tortoise. but i've been longing to change phone for so damn long. and as much as i dont rly like an iphone (COS IT'S SO COMMON), at least i got a new phone. happy lah okay :)

went town with ade ytd evening. and i bought that sandals from river island which cost me one hundred and seventeen dollarssss. i've been eyeing on it for 2 months alr. omgzx. tell me retail therapy is bad. cannot cannot, i must at least wear that for 117 days to make my money spent worthwhile. sometime back i bought bershaka's bikers vest. freaking chio lahhh. that cost me some kinda bomb too. oh god. and.. im doing online shopping now. eunice sent me the spree link, now i cant stopppp browsing. i quit months ago but it's back. all the uber nice leggings. urghhh. okay im gonna work part time.

my driving cui. im still stuck at third lesson. oh man, tp's coming soon. well quite a few in my class are also taking driving now. cool lah.

tues as usual last min work. was rushing visual comm and report. stayed up till 6plus in the morning and then went to slp and wake at 11. reached sch at 12.30 and freaking waited till 4plus for presentation. i was the number 30th. the presentation i kinda panick and now im rly lost.... cos i dont have a design direction yet.... not much time. only 1 month left!

I WANNA GO PERTH.............. in dec. i got this feeling im not supposed to leave but well. i rly wanna take a breather manz.


somehow i wish time could stop cos i dont wanna graduate :(






HAHAHA. i was trying to show how "handsome" my grandpa was. (i managed to find this on ps's friendster. some super old photo 1 or 2 yrs back!) despite the fact that he only has got lil hair at the sides, he still styles them, like comb them using gel. lol. and he drives the v old sch white mercedes. hip right......

AND I LIKE KONG BAH BAO. dad's only coming back this coming wed. so none for this wk.



I WANNA CHANGE PHONE. PLSPLSPLS. :( im rly desperate alr. i cant believe i've been using the phone for OVER 2 years. :(


sexaye and the rest of the 13 ppl are back from japan. aww man. bet they had loads of fun. argh. nvm, next time i'll go and it'll be just pure shopping. HA-HA-HA. and im waiting for sexaye to watch love happens this coming wkend or sth. :)))

not forgetting ICE CREAM BUFFET. omgzxzx. ion's swensens shall be it. die luh. growing fat. i can imagine weihan whining alr. :/ okay since im injured, i'll rly need to work out hard after i recover. cos napfa's on the 19th! goodness. ankle plsplspls recover by then.


okay now time to do fyp.





torn. ligament.

thanks so much to myself for doing all those shit which caused me nth but a whole shit ass of pain.


i tear so hard last night. not cos of the pain(oli got it right), but having to undergo the whole shit ass cycle w/o those used-to-be besties" made it extremely unbearable. i dont know why im still holding on.


(then i was thinking who would be there. nobody. reb hasnt been replying. xx has gone to perth. i neglected ade, wont it be realistic to realise we drifted only now? would be weird if i called eunice? she'll be like, why so random. then, good thing was there was atikah?)

weak and helpless as i were, atikah talked to me till i fell aslp. today i took bus down to yishun and atikah accompanied me to sinseh. i thought i sprained my ankle but it was a freaking torn ligament? i looked at the sinseh and his assistant in great shock when i heard that. and he tried to put my ankle back in line? whatever that means. I SCREAMED.


life's a bitch. shi hui's a bitch too. but thank god i have atikah.


as i grew older, i never shed a tear. till i had a partner, but later on it was gone too. but why am i still in this shit?

answer: I DONT KNOW X INFINITY.




now something happier. i cleared up the mess in my room and got stuff to make it even more comfy. more pillows and starry lights. my mom got some osim feet thing and she made me go ikea to get A CARPET for her osim thing despite the fact i injure my ankle. well nvm. cos i took the chance to get stuff for my room! :)




okay. just a short entry. now im feeling better cos atikah eevann rayson and a few others made me laugh. and there's huiqi and ade too. well i talked back over dinner. my mom just have to raise her voice at me over small matters like not switching off the power supply when i didnt know, not like i forgot or chose not to do it. seriously pissed off. and what made me even more upset was she said sth v insensitive like ppl cant stand my stubborness thats why they left(sth along that line). like hello? and she complained about me not listening to her. like why cant i just be good and agree to what she say instead of arguing back. and havent i been good to her. if not i won't even have the thought of getting her a durian cake which caused me damn a lot of trouble to travel in to sixth avenue. i guess our ways of showing affection's different. i hate it. and it just reminds me of the past.


anyhow, some random photos.





really feels like shit. or maybe im not even that. almost broke down on the cab, and i cried when i saw xiang at the airport. she was leaving for perth. i miss her alr :'( 7 yrs and going, besties forever, love.

sometimes its not about the opportunity cost i guess, it's neither about the time nor effort, it was just pure gut feelings/passion which kept one going. maybe today, i truely understand. i rly did try, i tried since 24months ago. i guess its enough, more than enough. at the end of the day only the toughest survive. reality is just this harsh.



on a lighter note, i've been searching online for overseas design schools. and i kinda like pratt instutite. the modules for fashion design alone make me damn excited to fly over to study. heheh. eunice isnt gg with me as i've expected :( so, if im gg, im gg alone! arghhhhhh. shall see how it goes. but the thought abt setting up a business is like damn cool, i like.

alright, goodnight earthlings.

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