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Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a peice of paper; But it's Empty

Tuesday, September 01, 2009 ( 10:45 PM )

oohhh..that body says:
A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.

oohhh..that body says:
In real love you want the other person's good. In romantic love you want the other person.

Love is a friendship set to music says:
i wont say much.

Love is a friendship set to music says:
just want you to know, i put you 1st on my list..

Love is a friendship set to music says:
you're what makes love in me wonderful. i love you

now that im getting better, i still cant help but to look back. those memories feel so fresh, just like yesterday. 22nd aug fireworks, sept holidays with him getting me food whenever i worked, trainings, oct's real run... just too many things flooding my blog and mind. i wished i captured every moment of them. "feelings fade..." i guess it's possible like what others said, tho not for me. even till today, as much as i wanna stop crying over spilt milk, once i think/dream of/dig up the past, im just as fragile, like an egg, which breaks upon pressure. ohgod. i fucking hate myself.
:( years pass by rly fast. before you know it, it's 2010.

okay emo stuff aside, it's damn cute how everyone's starting to use siasuay. LOL. just like "just only..." wq created a new term.

anw, i got stalked just now. i was deep in thoughts while walking home, passed the ice cream shop. and then, i dunno since when, this malay/indian/whatever race small boy has been chasing me. i only heard someone calling "aye girl, my friend wanna know you" after a few seconds. super retarded. i got a fright? wth. i looked back then i saw 2 small boys. WTH LUH. i know i look damn young but like, im almost 20 and i think they're only in sec sch?!!!!!!!!! i shook my head and walked faster. that boy came up beside me and like say "eh stop walking leh. dont shy lah, make friends leh." HELL NO?! WALAO. FREAK. good thing they didnt follow me all the way to the gate. if not i'll rly like, IDK. just go to the front gate and get the security to chase them away, like what happen in movies. LOL!

WHAT THE SHIT... im not 14 year old manz. how come those beng i knew in sec 3 werent so hiong. nowadays kids.. tsktsk.

then another stupid thing which happened was. there's this girl, heidi. talked to me on msn, like ask if i wanna be social escort and stuff. 500bucks for 2 hours or whatever shit. just send the clients to social events or what. and then i was thinking what's next. bed them? WTH MAN. i seriously hate people who keeps thinking ppl are gullible. i've been cheated a hell lot of times cos i was seriously damn gullible. -.- but put it in a good way, im too honest.

wth. i still rmb this call i got when i was in sec 2 or sth, asked if my parents were in. i even told him like my dad's overseas, and mom bathing. so he was like play whatever lucky draw. i just needa follow whatever he say. and i did! OMG STUPID RIGHT. WTHHHHHH. he made me say those short phrases. i suppose it was phone sex or what. cos i was saying stuff i didnt understand until i heard the word BREAST. WTF. he think im stupid or what. BREAST WAS SO BASIC. ARGH. stupid stupid.

and then, heidi asked if i wanna be model. okay then stuff like porn came to my mind. she dont even know me, my height, my assets whatever shit and she asked that kind of stupid qn. which obviously is a scam or what. pissed me off.

recently alot of grumbling. but tmr's bbq. and im getting quite frustrated. ahwell. stupidstupid!

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