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SAY YOU LOVE ME!

YOU KNOW WHAT, A VOLCANO IS ABOUT TO ERUPT. IF YOU'RE AFRAID THAT YOUR LIFE WILL BE IN DANGER, OFF YOU GO.


IM IN A DAMN FREAKING PISSED OFF MOOD. I WONDER WHERE DID ALL THESE MOOD SWINGS COME FROM. THEY ARE EITHER CAUSED BY PMS OR JUST PURELY STRESS AND TIREDNESS. BUT WHERE THE HELL DID THE STRESS COME FROM. FREAK. DEFINITELY NOT CAUSED BY WORK, COS I CAN EVEN ENJOY MY WORK NOW THAT I ALREADY ADAPT TO THE ENVIRONMENT. SO ANYONE TELL ME WHERE DID IT COME FROM. OKAY NO ONE WILL KNOW, NO ONE, OTHER THEN ME MYSELF AND I.

I GET IRRITATED AND ANNOYED EASILY, AND RECENTLY MANY THINGS HAVE MADE ME BEHAVE/TURN OUT LIKE THIS. FIRST THIS, SECOND THAT. IT'S JUST, EVERYTHING! AND CHEER IS CAUSING EVERYONE TO BE IN A REALLY FOUL MOOD, OKAY MAYBE JUST A FEW INCLUDING ME. I REALISED HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO BALANCE WORK AND TRAINING. AND I MEAN 9AM-7PM WORK, 7PM-10PM CHEER. HOW MANY FREAKING HOURS AM I LEFT WITH FOR MYSELF. I BARELY HAVE ENOUGH SLP EVERY NIGHT. AND YES, YOU MUST BE THINKING IF THATS THE CASE, WHY AM I STILL BLOGGING. I WILL TELL YOU NOW FRANKLY. IM TOO PISSED TO SLP.

THE FEELING IS LIKE, HEARTACHE, ANNOYED, STRESSED, DEPRESSED AND NO SELF-ESTEEM AT ALL. AT THE END OF THE DAY IT FELT LIKE, I LOST EVERYTHING, IM LEFT WITH NOTHING BUT MYSELF, ALONE ON THE BED THINKING WHY ARE ALL THESE HAPPENING TO ME. WHY CANT THINGS BE BETTER. WHY CANT I BE BETTER. WHY CANT I HAVE MORE SELF ESTEEM. WHY DID I CHOOSE TO GIVE UP. WHY AM I A WEAKLING. WHY DID I DO THOSE STUFF I DID...


WHY AM I LEFT ALONE?



I SO HATE THE WORLD FOR ALLOWING A WEAKLING TO BE ON IT. I HATE MYSELF.




(im sorry if one day i can no longer stay with you.. ihm)

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