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Tuesday, September 23, 2008 ( 10:58 AM )

my cousin just got married to a thai a few weeks ago and thus this has also triggered a lot of thoughts in me. these few weeks i have been constantly thinking about earning a good income in future in order to start a family. so i kind of predict i will have to get married at a later age like say 26 or 27, or even 28. i want to give my children a warm and loving family with no monetary worries, just like what my parents have gave me all these years. to me, marriage is about embarking on a new journey in life whereby you're able to be really independent in monetary terms and now it's your turn to give your parents a comfortable life. pay them visits, get them the food they like, spend time talk to them, give them sufficient allowance for their daily needs, like aww. :) and ytd i was saying i wanted 4 kids is because, i like the home to be very fun and lively. my grandma gave birth to 6 kids and all of them are so filial, and i like the feeling when we always gather at grandma's house for dinner on sundays evening. it's just so heart-warming, being able to savour every dish that grandma has cooked, although yes most of the time it's always about the same dishes. haha. thats why for all these, i count myself a very very very very lucky person. :) and one more thing, i really hope my grandparents (all 4) will be still around the day i walk down the aisle....

i guess there's still alot of things to look forward to in life, even till im 60, 70, or 80 like my grandparents. :)

(not taken ytd)
and ytd was our 9th anni. he came to my house for a swim and i like the zhuzhu bei. hahaha. if you're wondering what that is, it's piggy back. hahahaha. i gave him a huggggeeeee surprise and true enough he was surprised! HAHA. and also true enough, he didnt get me anything. haha. but i told him if he wanna get me sth, that thing shld be a polka dot hair band. awwwwww so cute pls. hahaha. and so, we went to cathay, and we watched a crazy movie. MAMA MIA!!!! hahahaha. gawd. it was freaking crazy and cute with some nice songs inside. then we took 106 to DEMPSY HILL. OOOOOOOOOOOOOH. that place for the rich, horrid. haha. but bens and jerry was good enough to make holes in our pocket. but it's a cool place to chill at. it's prolly just a bit hard to find uh. haha. i made him walked so far cos i said i wanted to bring him there but i dont rly know the way. hahaha. lucky we got good sense of direction and managed to get there. the bens and jerry's rly cool. yeah, veryyyyyyyy.

then we were off to trng! urm, now come to think of it, maybe i shld have gone to the class bbq!!! -.- ytd there were so few ppl. blahhhhhhhhhh.

and today! stupidzxzx purpur. seriously, i asked last night if i need to work today, she said no. and i asked what about wed and thurs. she told me im off this week! WTH. seriously, just sack me la. give me money and i jolly well go in pride. then this morning, SHE woked me up with a call at 10 saying, would you be able to come down by 12, you've got 2 hours to get ready and travel. LIKE, I TURNED HER DOWN FLAT. SORRY LAST NIGHT YOU TOLD ME IM OFF SO TODAY I ALR GOT STH ON. WAH KAOZ. think she big or what. tell me off then off, ask me come then i come. im not her dog. stupid brainless creature. seriously cant they plan it properly for nuts! i hate this kind of ppl. irritatingzzzzzzzzzz!

lucky im not as poor thing as the other new girl. the neighbour pushcart auntie told me that the new girl that day come all the way to work, then the manager tell her she off that day. like!? and then, the other new girl supposed to work. but halfway through she asked ppl to help her look after pushcart and she went to eat with her bf for 1 or 2+hours then disappear. then, they started to called the new girl who came but went home alr to come and work!!!!!!!!!! so thick skin and ridiculous. crazy management. if im her i will rly FA HUOOOOOO!!!! poor girl.

today's a great day. he's coming to my hse ltr. eat the bah kut teh my mum cooked. and we're gg ecp to cycle. rebec's gonna join us for dinner at the hk cafe. :)

we're gonna start trng for 10km run soon. i think that's gonna be the first time in life im running so much. madness. but horrid fats better be gone at the end of 19th oct. hahahaha.

TATA!

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Sunday, September 21, 2008 ( 1:03 AM )

really feeling upset, needed to rant, about to go off but "fucking go ahead and chat" so i came back. am i rly that bad? i must be.

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( 12:31 AM )

i come home every night feeling so useless and stupid. what have i been persuing so far? im lost. okay, maybe i can conclude it as my loser attitude again. im just another loser on earth. no one other than her understands how i feel.

and tonight, once again i feel extreme unfairness. why on earth does unfairness have to exist. or rather biasness. i was posted to novetel hotel to have an experience of how the banquet environment was like. however i ended up being left aside cos i have no experience. and you might ask so what did i do? i folded napkins. okay well you might think it's easy job for 6 bucks uh. stupid senseless creatures on earth.

1. they should have checked with agency how many had job experience for banquet before getting the manpower.

2. they should not waste our time and ask us to work for 3 hrs and go home. (it is not even enough to pay my shoes, skirt and bun net which cost a total of 23 bucks) either they ask us to work throughout or just send us home immediately. we might have arranged for another off-job trng.

3. should inexperience ppl be deprived of a chance to try out banquet job. so does tt mean everyone who have nv done it before need not even try cos they have no experience? just let all extinct and die off uh. brainless creatures.

4. they think they're 6 star-hotel, when they are only a mere maybe 3 star hotel? refuse to use new ppl. how cute. arrogant ppl.

5. so they actl pick the better and more presentable ones out when i was standing right in front. superficial noob. so everything is based on looks. you're ugly you wash dishes. you're pretty, you get everything. stupid.

6. oh and one last point. we stopped at 9:45pm to be precise. but what do we get in the end. 6pm-9pm recorded. screw them, seriously.

i just feel i needed to vent out my anger. couldnt stand it. yesyes, i think it's still my loser attitude. whatever it is...

and im being so stupid to take up a pushcart job even when its 4.50 bucks per hour. so dumb so stupid so gullible. so i shouldnt even have worked throughout the holiday cos i couldnt get a job i want which comes along with good pay. i couldnt get those jobs i want cos i looked childish, im short, im ugly, im just too young. whatever the reason is.

i think im just too lucky to have a bf like adrian. he could have worked OT till 1:30am with transport home. but cos of me, he had to come out at 11:00pm. and there wasnt any feeder home at 12am when he reached lakeside. why would such a good guy want a girl like me right. forever so late, forever make him wait, forever giving him stupid attitude, forever not having time for him, forever ignoring him, forever not giving him surprise, forever not replying his message, forever not picking up and returning his calls, forever not responding to him, forever, forever, forever...

tears reflection on mirror;
what on earth am i;
nothing,... nothing...

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Thursday, September 18, 2008 ( 11:14 AM )

moody moody, very moody, oh-so-moody. now still moody. blahhh... ignore me. will post photos later tonight. off to work. MOODY! :(

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Wednesday, September 17, 2008 ( 11:20 AM )

1. The person who tag/pass you is? none other than raymond.

2. Your relationship with him/her is? i need to say friend. haa.

3. Your five impression of him/her? cant stop moving, devoted christian, elated about being able to drive, adventurous, daring.

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? URM, i really need to think hard... hmm..

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you? LIFE'S GOOD, as always.

6. If he/she become your lover you will? WOAH, interesting question. i oso need to think rly hard cos it nv crossed my mind.. :/

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be? totally different channel...

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will? forgive and forget about himmmmmmm. poof.

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be? he called me plump, or BAHBAH. cos i will be hiding somewhere.

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is? eh, nothing?!!!!

11. Your overall impression of him/her is? HYPE.

12. How you think people around you will feel about you? ahhhhhh, i dont rly care. neutral will do. but good friends is another thing..

13. The characters you love of yourself are? i only tot of dislike. being AUNTIE and AH MA.

14. The most ideal person you want to be is? APPRECIATIVE OF EVERYTHING.

15. For people that care and like you, say something to them? LOVE YOU GUYS TOOO. AWWWWWWWWWW. :)

16. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. (I am really being very nice to... not pass this to anyone :) )

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Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ( 11:59 PM )

FIRSTLY.. (oooh i like this red alot. heh.)

I AM BACK

TO UPDATE MY DEAD DOG!

*waves frantically & smiles widely*

VERYYY BIGGG hellooo to you all.

IJ besties, mahanas, cheerleaders, and whoever's reading!

currently havings holidays and very very veryyy busy!

work, cheer, boyfriend, friends..

kept me so occupied.

work.

$4.50/hr seems lil uh. I THINK SO TOO!!! but oh well, im rather desperate for a job. good thing is.. it's very slackkk. :) so much better than popping whole head into the glass to scoop ice creamm. back-breaking really. F&B is never easy. so i tried retail. selling t-shirts at far east push cart. i get commission tooooo. okay dont sound rly attractive still. -.- but i swear whenever i can I AM SO GONNA EARN THEIR 10 BUCKS COMMISSION!!! HAHAHAHAHA.

and so in the midst of looking for another job, eunice came along and told me about the F1 race. HOHOHO. not racing laaa. but ya, will be serving spectators etc. $7.50/hr. coolness. still very lil compared to rebec's but its okayyy. money money here i comeeeeeee. :D it's on 26 27 28!

cheer.

still quite lost... rather aimless... so i shant say much. :/

boyfriend.

I LAO HU YOU as much as ever. :) today really thanks for your understanding. i couldnt ask for anything much. i really love today cos i got to spend time with mahana but what made me even more happy was you didnt mind me.

you're the best cos you get food for me when i need to work, find out all the timing and transport fees to workplace, help me collect my stuff, remind me every small lil thing, season the spicy food, get me everything i want, always giving me surprises, send me to work and off, give me morning calls. last but not least love, treasure and dote on me. awwwwwww. :)

holidays i didnt spend much quality time with you. but i will make up to you. as to how, you can guess slowly uhh. hahaha.

and yes i still wanna say, the day we went zoo was the happiest day of this whole holiday..

you know when the world ends, i will be at the other end waiting for you..

friends.

JUST NOW MET UP WITH MAHANA. seriously, they're one of the those fun ppl arnd.

firstly bryan came to my workplace. (cos someone pangsehed him-.-) even then, i asked him to get me lunch cos i cant go away. i demanded milk tea(small) and mashed potato from chippies! he got me both but with milk tea upsized. thanks bryan! will treat you too some other time :) thanks for accompanying meeeee tooo. tho you're quite redundant! oops! haha! awww dont be heart-broken!

and then afternoon he started calling everyone from mahana. from emo-he turned ego. -.- "SEE I CALL WITHIN 15 MINS I GATHERED NANA, STACEY, MARK, EEVANN." like.... -.- haha.

anw then stacey came after her prelims and nana came from his dreams. -.- thanks to nana too. he got me BUBBLE TEAAAA. omg. seriously damn damn damn sinful. it was like snack the whole day. hahaha. oh well...

of course my tie xin boyfriend came to get me food too. always, without fail. im so gonna turn into a fat ass. haha. zz. THANK YOU LOADDDDDSSSSSSS BOYFI. you're gonna get your reward soon with your accumulated points!!! near to 1000 alr. or more!

and so, i continued working till and met them at UDDERS ice cream later on. dragged boyfriend along. so in all, i met nicholas, mark, bryan, wilson, stacey, benedict, xiaoyu and BIRTHDAY TO BE BOY, EEVANN SEAH YI FAN! (atikah, you're missed:( )

wilson kept calling me a loserrrrrrr. HAWHAWHAW. just cos im willing to work 4.5/h and i study driving wayyyyyyy before the test!!!! hahaha. oh well.....

im so in love with suzuki swift (no sport). hahaha. so gonnaaaa driveeeee. wait till i get it. -.-

AND AND, IM MEETING IJ GIRLFRIENDS TMR!!! AWWW.

i still wanna say, life's gooddd. hahaha.

catch hols whilst it lasts!!

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