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okay i havent been rly happy these days. i would sum this week up as very eventful. with 2 mahana outings cramped in a wk. but oh well, compared to the PAE days, its nth.


wed outing with mahanas was rly fun. like tho ppl like eevann and wilson ganged up to bully me, i was rly happy to be able to see ppl like atikah, benedict, bryan, nicholas, stacey. :) (damn, eevann and wilson were so determined to add on pimples to my face by putting all those CHALK left by our "kind" bowling neightbours on my face.) normal eevann's doing. "shihui!" *i turn head* *poke* there you go, one biggggg spot of chalk on my face. zzzzzzzzzzzzz. thanks ah eevann. basically we ate at swensens, played daytona, and bowled. omg, wilson havent gone overseas la. his flight was postphone. im so lucky la pls. he helped my carry my laptop. but in e end i was so tired so he ended up walking me home with my laptop and bag. lol. thats the advantage of having a guy who stays near you. ;p


okay today was cheer performance at orchard hotel. but we were in sch freaking early. like 10. god knows why. hmmmmmmmm actl last few rehearsals we were still quite screwed up. like okay i admit i myself was like still v blur. -.- guess thats due to the lack of practice. but lucky the end "product" was still passable.


hmmmmmmmmmmm.. i dunno my passion can last for how long more. im feeling it die off. i rmb sth that my bestie asked b4, whether i will. now i myself dunno. external factors are somewhat biggg barriers. and my perfectionist trait in me just make it worse. im feeling myself become more like someone.


wen zhen saw carolyn and lee peng dance rumba the other day. they were practising for a dance sport competition which is coming up in dec or nxt yr i guess. she got so high la. haha. why didnt carolyn and lee peng joined in sem 1. and if wen zhen got high earlier, i could have joined with her in sem 2.


actl i know i couldnt survive without friends in a cca in sch. thus i actl asked my mum if i could take up dance sport lessons outside when i move to town. like yeah. but obviously my mum was like. learn for what. i mean its a kind of passion too. and it will be good if i could rly become a international dancer. but obviously thats far too much a big dream for a girl like me. haha. but thats how my perfectionist works. either the best or dont even think about it.


thinking back, i had so many ambitions. air stewardess, horse rider, part time social worker who counsels young teens and goes overseas to help ppl build hses, DANCER. (you'll realise i didnt include designer. cos its my interest but i have never thought of holding a designer job, but now i have to)


today samuel asked a very good question. what makes me wanna join cheerleading. in secondary sch we are like so exposed to stuff like dance and cheerleading. i rmb in sec 1 i wanted to join dance. but i didnt urm cos i only wanted to have 1 cca and i alr had one. which is CLDDS. its compulsory can. then when we knew we could quit, i started to not turn up for trng. in sec 2, i was looking for a new cca. true enough i went to audition for dance. for a stm person like me who had no friends in dance of course didnt get in. cos i couldnt rmb the steps. -.- what a disappointment. then through the different house competition, i came to know about cheer. seriously u see them do, you get all high over. hahaha. they do rly cool stuff. like front body roll and somersault. cartwheel. the dance and all. omgggggggggg. VERY NICE. but eventually didnt do anything cos i alr joined red cross. seriously first aid wasnt my kind of thing. like... i rather join guides. and i did try. but once agn, i couldnt survive without knowing anyone there. damn sad can. haha. why must my friends all be so red crossy. <3 anw. :)


to talk about rly do cheerleading it was in sec 3 during post exams activity when we had a inter-class netball carnival and there's a cheerleading category. yeah. grace put all the light ppl in it. seriously tho there were a lot a lot of trngs and i injured like so so so so so many numerous times, it was worth it.


looking back:
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
11:29 PM
so much hav happened over e past few days.
sunday-
i went for cheerleading practice n guess wad. i tried doin liberty n fell THREE times frm one person's height. damn scary. e first time i fell on my butt.. e second on my right arm.. it was still ok.. e third time i fell, i tot i was dying or sumthin.. i fell in an v undesirable way.. landed on my rib cage.. n my stomach was squashed. lucky i fell on e grass. which was already bad enough. hais. everi1 was like shouting.. "red cross gals! red cross gals!" haha.. so funnie.. whenever anyone is injured.. they will start calling all e rc ppl.. they r fortunate to hav.. 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. !!! rc gals in their class. haha.. clara felt my abdomen for protruding intestines or dunno wad.. i kept on asking her to check again.. cos it was real painful. haha.. but i tink it's in e mind.
after tt went to aunt's hse to swim. heehee. i can swim! but it does hurt though.. it's so fun to b in e pool after such a long time. tis sunday cant swim le.. ps got o level chinese on mon. all e best to those sec fours taking olevel chinese.. urm.. pohsian. paul. clarence. enshao. n lastly all e sec 4 ma'ams.
stayed overnight at ps hse. i was so tired.
mon-
woke up early in e morning to find my neck aching. instead my whole body was aching i tink. went to sunplaza to eat bf wif ps at macs. was late for cheerleading again. i was reali feeling not quite well.. my stomach felt compressed. i jus reached for not long then they went for lunch break. n i had my lunch wif my relatives at long beach. my dad fetched me there. he was giving everi1 a treat. i mean like i tink he's happy cos finally sumone is going to buy our hse. i hav mixed feelings though. i live in yishun for so long le. bu she de.
paul called me when i was in e car. tok for awhile then hang up. went to see doctor cos couldnt stand e compressed feeling anymore. when i was there i couldnt tell which part was painful. but i noe it's on my right. doc said i got no fractures or wad. he said it was perhaps some internal muscles tt were injured n there's a contusion? i dunno. haha. anyway he told me to keep away frm cheerleading for a few days n prescribed some painkillers for me.
i knew i cant keep away frm cheerleading. it was jus one day away to netball carnival. n my class needs me.
tues-
i kept e mc n went ahead to do wad i believe in. oue class, 3/3, won 1st for cheerleading and 3rd for overall our efforts were all paid off. i dun mind falling once more. poor sam.. while we were practising for our cheerleading she aprained her ankle. if im not wrong i tink she fell frm one person's height too.. while doing hitch.. there were lots n lots of injuries. jane was damn pissed off. at first she tot we couldnt do without sam.. but in e end we still made it. 3/3 rawks!!
tis whole event reali bonds us together as a class.
ate lunch at KFC near e kallang netball stadium, jus like last yr. went to j8 to watch star wars 3 ltr in e afternoon. none of us hav watched e first two parts b4 but who cares la. we hav got nth better to do. e other three movies were all NC 16. im young! e movie was quite nice. some parts were boring though. tt was e first time ever i fell aslp in cinema. so tired. i lovee e last part. at least sumthin comes out of it. haha.


that day i was talking to jane. say maybe 2 months ago. i was so happy to tell her i am in cheer now. cos apparently jane is in cheer at np. and jane was the one who inpired me, rly. she was the one who lead us in sec 3 and she inspired me a lot. like cheerleading is a good sport. hahaha. she told me cheerleading is still not very popular in spore so we shld help spread the spirit of cheerleading. like omggggg. a young girl with big dreams la she. but basically my sec sch environment and jane are the 2 reasons why i joined cheer.


hmmmmmmmmm thoughts just flood my mind somehow. sometimes it rly better to be a listener and observer. cos you can rly tell what exactly that person is thinking. you just need to listen, absorb, think, process and yes, you will know. when ppl are rambling without thinking, you know. sometimes ppl think you dunno what they're thinking, BUT you know. thats the power of being a listener. you know the situation inside out.


haha, now i know how come siow kee's so smart. she listens more than she talks. i think im gonna master that.



OKAY ITS A SUPER LONG POST. MOODY PPL TYPE LIKE THIS. HAHAHA. dont bother to read if you think its long. goodnight.


afterall, life's a contradiction. living life to fullest and treasuring the ppl arnd are still the priority of my life.

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