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hmm recently a lot happened. i screwed up my submission. and yeah on that night i found out sth, which i wished i never chanced upon and knew. perhaps sometimes its better to be not so kpo.


now even a lil ripple makes me scared. usually i will just laugh it off. but this time there seems to be strong and powerful undercurrents.


im just gonna close an eye and give you the advantage of a doubt. pls never let me find out the real harsh truth. even at this age, i really hope i dont need to undergo all the rahrah.


keep together-

look into those eyes like you used to.

i dont understand why is life like that. neither do i understand why are beings made like beings. why do the beings in the beings make the beings beings. suck.


where's the heart.





sinseh, im coming!




i havent been shopping recently. and im so gonna get a hard drive, billabong wallet and aldano white sunglasses THIS WEEKEND. :D i've been waiting for so long... wooo....


okay gg back to do report. ciaos. :)




okay i havent been rly happy these days. i would sum this week up as very eventful. with 2 mahana outings cramped in a wk. but oh well, compared to the PAE days, its nth.


wed outing with mahanas was rly fun. like tho ppl like eevann and wilson ganged up to bully me, i was rly happy to be able to see ppl like atikah, benedict, bryan, nicholas, stacey. :) (damn, eevann and wilson were so determined to add on pimples to my face by putting all those CHALK left by our "kind" bowling neightbours on my face.) normal eevann's doing. "shihui!" *i turn head* *poke* there you go, one biggggg spot of chalk on my face. zzzzzzzzzzzzz. thanks ah eevann. basically we ate at swensens, played daytona, and bowled. omg, wilson havent gone overseas la. his flight was postphone. im so lucky la pls. he helped my carry my laptop. but in e end i was so tired so he ended up walking me home with my laptop and bag. lol. thats the advantage of having a guy who stays near you. ;p


okay today was cheer performance at orchard hotel. but we were in sch freaking early. like 10. god knows why. hmmmmmmmm actl last few rehearsals we were still quite screwed up. like okay i admit i myself was like still v blur. -.- guess thats due to the lack of practice. but lucky the end "product" was still passable.


hmmmmmmmmmmm.. i dunno my passion can last for how long more. im feeling it die off. i rmb sth that my bestie asked b4, whether i will. now i myself dunno. external factors are somewhat biggg barriers. and my perfectionist trait in me just make it worse. im feeling myself become more like someone.


wen zhen saw carolyn and lee peng dance rumba the other day. they were practising for a dance sport competition which is coming up in dec or nxt yr i guess. she got so high la. haha. why didnt carolyn and lee peng joined in sem 1. and if wen zhen got high earlier, i could have joined with her in sem 2.


actl i know i couldnt survive without friends in a cca in sch. thus i actl asked my mum if i could take up dance sport lessons outside when i move to town. like yeah. but obviously my mum was like. learn for what. i mean its a kind of passion too. and it will be good if i could rly become a international dancer. but obviously thats far too much a big dream for a girl like me. haha. but thats how my perfectionist works. either the best or dont even think about it.


thinking back, i had so many ambitions. air stewardess, horse rider, part time social worker who counsels young teens and goes overseas to help ppl build hses, DANCER. (you'll realise i didnt include designer. cos its my interest but i have never thought of holding a designer job, but now i have to)


today samuel asked a very good question. what makes me wanna join cheerleading. in secondary sch we are like so exposed to stuff like dance and cheerleading. i rmb in sec 1 i wanted to join dance. but i didnt urm cos i only wanted to have 1 cca and i alr had one. which is CLDDS. its compulsory can. then when we knew we could quit, i started to not turn up for trng. in sec 2, i was looking for a new cca. true enough i went to audition for dance. for a stm person like me who had no friends in dance of course didnt get in. cos i couldnt rmb the steps. -.- what a disappointment. then through the different house competition, i came to know about cheer. seriously u see them do, you get all high over. hahaha. they do rly cool stuff. like front body roll and somersault. cartwheel. the dance and all. omgggggggggg. VERY NICE. but eventually didnt do anything cos i alr joined red cross. seriously first aid wasnt my kind of thing. like... i rather join guides. and i did try. but once agn, i couldnt survive without knowing anyone there. damn sad can. haha. why must my friends all be so red crossy. <3 anw. :)


to talk about rly do cheerleading it was in sec 3 during post exams activity when we had a inter-class netball carnival and there's a cheerleading category. yeah. grace put all the light ppl in it. seriously tho there were a lot a lot of trngs and i injured like so so so so so many numerous times, it was worth it.


looking back:
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
11:29 PM
so much hav happened over e past few days.
sunday-
i went for cheerleading practice n guess wad. i tried doin liberty n fell THREE times frm one person's height. damn scary. e first time i fell on my butt.. e second on my right arm.. it was still ok.. e third time i fell, i tot i was dying or sumthin.. i fell in an v undesirable way.. landed on my rib cage.. n my stomach was squashed. lucky i fell on e grass. which was already bad enough. hais. everi1 was like shouting.. "red cross gals! red cross gals!" haha.. so funnie.. whenever anyone is injured.. they will start calling all e rc ppl.. they r fortunate to hav.. 1.. 2.. 3.. 4.. !!! rc gals in their class. haha.. clara felt my abdomen for protruding intestines or dunno wad.. i kept on asking her to check again.. cos it was real painful. haha.. but i tink it's in e mind.
after tt went to aunt's hse to swim. heehee. i can swim! but it does hurt though.. it's so fun to b in e pool after such a long time. tis sunday cant swim le.. ps got o level chinese on mon. all e best to those sec fours taking olevel chinese.. urm.. pohsian. paul. clarence. enshao. n lastly all e sec 4 ma'ams.
stayed overnight at ps hse. i was so tired.
mon-
woke up early in e morning to find my neck aching. instead my whole body was aching i tink. went to sunplaza to eat bf wif ps at macs. was late for cheerleading again. i was reali feeling not quite well.. my stomach felt compressed. i jus reached for not long then they went for lunch break. n i had my lunch wif my relatives at long beach. my dad fetched me there. he was giving everi1 a treat. i mean like i tink he's happy cos finally sumone is going to buy our hse. i hav mixed feelings though. i live in yishun for so long le. bu she de.
paul called me when i was in e car. tok for awhile then hang up. went to see doctor cos couldnt stand e compressed feeling anymore. when i was there i couldnt tell which part was painful. but i noe it's on my right. doc said i got no fractures or wad. he said it was perhaps some internal muscles tt were injured n there's a contusion? i dunno. haha. anyway he told me to keep away frm cheerleading for a few days n prescribed some painkillers for me.
i knew i cant keep away frm cheerleading. it was jus one day away to netball carnival. n my class needs me.
tues-
i kept e mc n went ahead to do wad i believe in. oue class, 3/3, won 1st for cheerleading and 3rd for overall our efforts were all paid off. i dun mind falling once more. poor sam.. while we were practising for our cheerleading she aprained her ankle. if im not wrong i tink she fell frm one person's height too.. while doing hitch.. there were lots n lots of injuries. jane was damn pissed off. at first she tot we couldnt do without sam.. but in e end we still made it. 3/3 rawks!!
tis whole event reali bonds us together as a class.
ate lunch at KFC near e kallang netball stadium, jus like last yr. went to j8 to watch star wars 3 ltr in e afternoon. none of us hav watched e first two parts b4 but who cares la. we hav got nth better to do. e other three movies were all NC 16. im young! e movie was quite nice. some parts were boring though. tt was e first time ever i fell aslp in cinema. so tired. i lovee e last part. at least sumthin comes out of it. haha.


that day i was talking to jane. say maybe 2 months ago. i was so happy to tell her i am in cheer now. cos apparently jane is in cheer at np. and jane was the one who inpired me, rly. she was the one who lead us in sec 3 and she inspired me a lot. like cheerleading is a good sport. hahaha. she told me cheerleading is still not very popular in spore so we shld help spread the spirit of cheerleading. like omggggg. a young girl with big dreams la she. but basically my sec sch environment and jane are the 2 reasons why i joined cheer.


hmmmmmmmmm thoughts just flood my mind somehow. sometimes it rly better to be a listener and observer. cos you can rly tell what exactly that person is thinking. you just need to listen, absorb, think, process and yes, you will know. when ppl are rambling without thinking, you know. sometimes ppl think you dunno what they're thinking, BUT you know. thats the power of being a listener. you know the situation inside out.


haha, now i know how come siow kee's so smart. she listens more than she talks. i think im gonna master that.



OKAY ITS A SUPER LONG POST. MOODY PPL TYPE LIKE THIS. HAHAHA. dont bother to read if you think its long. goodnight.


afterall, life's a contradiction. living life to fullest and treasuring the ppl arnd are still the priority of my life.









i think there's this freaking serious problem with myself. i keep pissing ppl off these few weeks. like raymond and joshua. somehow i piss them off every now and then. like, i dont ever piss my frens off can? chances of my getting angry are higher normally. okay i dunno wads wrong but this doesnt feel good. :( oh well..


SORRY X a hundred thousand. maybe its best avoided if i dont talk to em.


okay, now there's another problem. we're supposed to do the experience places project on monday night. at padang. (wen zhen wants to go there) and its on monday cos wen zhen's working on both sat and sun and we have to present on tues. then i found out that there's trng on monday. then i there's oso edward's bday on mon. GOSH. this is like... how am i gonna spilt myself up. the padang one sure must go. as for edward's bday at changi, i wanna go badly. cos im missing mahanas alot. :( prolly missing trng on monday.


this sucks. im gg to offline, to bed. goodbye.




lil things like this upsets me..





okay WEDNESDAY WAS LOVE! WOOLALA! :) our long awaited sotong ballss gathering. hahahah.


take at look at what 2 of my love wrote on their bloggies:

xx:
"Ytd was a great deal of enjoyment went out with Shi Hui, Hui Qi, Siow Kee, Shona! damn funny and as usual, when we go out we always embarass ourselves i wonder y but the harvest seafood was quite nice tho the svc was ok, i pity the waiters looking at us doing stupid things n taking more than a hundred photo in fact we stayed there for more than 2 hours literally n i really enjoyed myself we kept laughing till we get stomache n even on the train we were laughing like crazy n everybody was looking at us like we r some madwomen a pity Hui Qi left early bon voyage Hui Qi have fun at Taiwan!"


OH YEAH, have fun at taiwan and dont forget my JAY'S CD!! :D


wee's:
"back frm meeting wif my sotongballls =)) happiness really.we talked/ gossiped/ rot/ eat/ window-shopped for 5 HOURS!!life man =D=Domg. so pigggggg >.<

haii. i dun dare go back 2 the restaurant le.. n this list would JUST increase each tym we meet up. OMG.. so throw face la.. BUT IT'S FUNNNNNNNNN =)

come to think of it.. SEC 1/2 life jus ROX really.. wif the sotongballlllls! SO many fond memories!! YEAH! SK's house! Shona's house! Paya Lebar! IMM! D&T sessions wif the sotongballlllls!! omg. i just missed all of them. it was den tt i was so carefree! played all day looooonnnng. well minus all those ARC stuff. i didnt had much 2 worry abt! haiiii, I MISSSSSSED those days!!"


aww.. i believe WE ALL terribly miss those innocent days when our belts were still like high up at our waist. we had so much fun tgt, even till today, when we're all 17. hahaha. :) we're never gonna find a clique which could replace all these.


i love every single one of yall, sotong balls. <33


plentiful photos another day! hundreds of them man..


THURSSDAY!
omg, i slept all the way till 11am! but still very tired. haha. hmm nth much actl.


FRIDAY!
after faris lesson da jie wen zhen and i went to holland v to eat nasi lemak. den back to sch. talked crap for like an hr or so den we all headed to the plastic factory. okay what i think is, the trip wasnt that fulfilling. cos i didnt absorb much. as of now, i only rmb one printing method called tempo. -.- the trip only reconfirm my stand that one will tend to have a shorter lifespan if he/she work at the factory for a v long time. imagine sniffing all the paint. sigh.

anw after which wen zhen da jie ivan and i went to SENTOSA! hahaha. okay, ivan's like the odd one out. we were there to do the xdm assignment. that is to go to 2 places which you've not gone b4 and give a presentation on your experience. we went to the song of the sea. omg. it was... prettaye man! :) i took like tons of photos. lol. but my new s500i is like 2 mega pixel ONLY. kinda downgraded from 3.2 mega p. but the lighting is damn cool. i like. :)



alrighty, serious i feel so uneasy. like suddenly i got no work to do!!!! OMGOSH. i keep thinking i got tons of work to do jus now while i was watching tv. okay i think im suffering from post-stress. madness.

but i bet it wont be long till i get busy all over again.


what a vicious cycle.




the reason why im here is cos.. its someone's big day tmr :)








this is what i always do at the new house. LOL. and i think this is cool. cos we're both in green!










sigh, sometimes things just dont turn out the way you want it to. things which were never meant that way came across as what it is now.


life's been rly hard for me. okay i know im not living in the third world country with no basic necessities. but the stress now is = to the hungry they're facing there. jus that ours is mentally, and for me also emotionally. theirs is physically. ours is slowly eating up our lives whilst theirs is faster i guess.


slept at 4.30am last night. ivan called me at arnd 2 plus i guess. and i was like whinning and complaining about the ppt. zzz. seriously life sucks. i felt like crying last night pls. reminds me of my pri 5 yrs. 11am 12am still up and doing work. i cried. then my dad have to like console me. i guess all i need is jus a, 'hurry finish up your work and go slp kay'. i hate this. i want a goodnight slp :(


today i still gotta finish up the flash and study. god bless me man. im so gonna die. think i dont need to slp alr. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


pretty pls would you just end this all. thats all i wish for.




Zhai Wei says:
it disappear
shihui. im so gonna faint, now. says:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shihui. im so gonna faint, now. says:
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))):


this kind of things make me go haywire... ):


but



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Nikorasu {]><[} says:
listen this dont faint
shihui. im so gonna faint, now. says:
haha
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Nikorasu {]><[} says:
this one also


awww.. jay's new songs! :D nah's rly niceee. mahanas shld rly meet up soon to celebrate ur belated bday. and i treat you ice cream k! :)























HELLO ALL! im sure this blog skin is soooo much better than the previous one right! :) i sacrificed my time to do this shit. could have done my assignments. oh well. but im rather satisfied with this blogskin. :) just that its weird when u navigate arnd. the whole thing shifts from right to left then to centre. ahhh.. cant be bothered alr. have been fiddling with this for the whole night. i did a some cheating as usual, if you ask me how i did this. :X


this whole week or perhaps semster has been a VERYYY busy one. like omgz. so much assignments. >:< think im gg to suffer frm mental illness soon eh? sheeshhh.


ytd we went to workshop to do our multimedia device mock ups. one of my my mock up was like less than 6 mm thick with CURVES. freaking small. so i went to the sanding machine to sand the wood. guess what. cos of my impatient-ness and carelessness, i lost 2 pieces of skin fingers to the sanding machine. damn.

"shit," i thought to myself.

*walked out of the sanding room, put the piece of damn wood on the table.*

*walked towards the tap near the door*

sandy: "eh, shi hui, i have to go off alr, my mock ups how? you help me bring back to class ltr?"

me, panicked with fear (still holding on to my dear fingers, trying to hide from her. LOL.) : "oh okay, jus leave it there."

*chiong to the tap near the door (so that it wont be obvious)*

it kept bleeding for god's sake. i was damn scared! den i pressed my fingers and went out, to the nearest washroom to get toilet paper. i came back with toilet paper wrapped around my fingers. -.-" how retarded.

i managed to hide it well. haha. no one knows. den i went into the sanding room. i told da jie about my injury. she was like. "no wonder i tot i saw u sanding den u sudd disappear. dunno go where. so you MO MO (quietly) went to wash den come back la?" LOL! that was super funny. the way she said it. like i secretly disappear.

anw seriously suck okay. now im still scared. cos its still WET. man, imagine. and they feel numb. i actl wonder if i need to go for stitching. the thought of it rly make me feel frighten. like, omg. i dont wanna stitch. i will cry like some baby there. :(

quickquick recover pls...



today morning i got so flared up. by my dad. usual thing, over his selfishness. i woke up late, and i had to ask my mum to apply medication for me. den it was raining. dad dont even want to fetch me to the mrt station. i was telling da jie how xin fu she is pls. dad fetches her frm seng kang to dover. my dad, yishun to yishun oso complain. like man. i got so pissed. i left the hse all burnt up. w/o umbrella. jus walk like some stupid dog on the road. so silly. but i was angry. but what can i do?

only da jie and me went sch today. okay sandy came but she was uber late. imagine, she asked da jie if she can be marked late when she actl reach at 1210 when lesson supposedly end at 1200. like HELLO? lol. funny.

today's psycho class was pathetic. 12 ppl nia. one DID yr 2 guy slping somemore. like right in front of me. it reminds me of myself dozing off. LOL. she can go on talking for hrs i tell you. zzz. but she's nice luh. :)

okay, one whole day wasted. POOF! gone just like that. goodnight! :)

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