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my eyes are swollen frm tears jus now. i wonder what the heck was wrong with my parents or perhaps it was jus me. i jus wanted to go to fren's hse to do hw. but my mum didnt allow me to. upon knowing those were ppl frm jc, mum got even more flared up. she made her pt tt there would be no dicussion gg on and i shouldnt even be there. like she says im dumb. but does she rly know wads best for me? i jus wanna get out of this hse. not tt i dont like this home. but i wanna get some company. and furthermore, michael's hse was super near! tho i admit i actl wanted to join mark, eevann, and nicholas for pool at dohby ghaut b4 gg to do hw. and tt i didnt tell my mum tt. i was in e wrong. i was telling half lie. but tt doesnt mean she has the right to stop me frm gg out. she actl threatened to not acknowledge me if i step out of e hse. she tot i didnt dare. e thing is i opened the door and she stopped me. i stood there and tried to argue and fight for my right. ok sound so drama. but yeah. i refused to give in. you can say im stubborn. but im not in e wrong. am i wrong to go to fren's hse to do work if i know i can concentrate better there? den i walked towards e back door. mum was like "i told you you cant go out you still wanna go out!" she screamed at me. i was like so what if i leave the hse. den i attempted tt several times, but each time she screamed, im so obedient to jus come back. WTH. den mark, bryan were calling me. so i replied them. mum saw this as sth she could threatened me with. agn she say, "ok, you wanna go out isit. go out den i cut ur line on mon." after a few secs, i pondered abt it. i said ok, i go out, you cut. i seriously didnt care. im alr so sad. like rly down. and she try to use all sorts of method to make me stay home. i dont like her stupid temper. and i jus didnt wanna give in. mayb i'll be even happier if she cut my line. my asshole dad initially was ok with me gg out. but somehow after listening to my mum scold me, he joined in. and after i said go ahead and cut my line. he added tt it's not abt e line, not abt any condition, he said no, means no. i cant go out. he actl demanded for me to go upstairs, if not he cane me or sth. WTH. i hate him. jus now went grandma's hse i was sitting so far away frm them. i havent spoken to them a single bit. not even a word. and this shall continue. cos i so hate them. i wont do anything to hurt myself. all i would do, is to ignore them. like be cold to them. they only cared about their own face, wanting me to listen to them when they dont deserve those respect frm me by using all sorts of stupid ways to stop me frm gg out. they're being unreasonable. so i shant give a damn abt them.


sch's reopening and im sad! over all kinds of stupid stuff. stressed at e same time. mini me is kinda... hopeless? ahhh..... idk. shit man. i think im only looking forward to fri. think i'll be gg to michael's hse?


oh yeah, one more thing. i feel super guilty over not studying with atikah. :( actl e thing is i wanted to go to michael's hse today. but i woke up late. so i tot mayb i'll stay home. but mark asked if i wanna play pool and he was using his famous pls-ing method to make ppl go. so i intended to go pool den go do hw. den bryan msged me and say wah, you pangseh atikah, and you're gg to play pool! den when i tried to explain, he called them excuses. sigh, wadeva it is lah. i feel damn bastard.


my conclusion is sadness is devastating. it turns ur life upside DOWN.


lets hope for a better tmr. tata! ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKING MIDS IN E COMING WK! JIAYOU! :)

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