PROFILE

SAY YOU LOVE ME!

good thing mum allowed me to go for camp. was at FAREWELL CAMP frm ytd till today afternoon. overall i would say it was fun :) but of course there's this sad part too. sighh. today i got home and was in a really bad mood. unpacked my stuff and my mum was complaining cos i was walking arnd in my socks. i got irritated and lost my temper. arghh. was like rude. yea. another rude incident. it always happen. i mean im really tired alr and trying to pack all my stuff quickly and take a shower. she's down there scolding me cos of some trival matters. dad stood on my side. HEH ;p however, my mood remained in this unstable equlibrium. hais. i was really distracted and i didnt know what i was doing. i really feel sad. somehow it's funny. cos it's e ex ma'ams im missing. dunno y. argh. im jus disturbed by the fact we're leaving rc. so unimaginable, unbelivable. seriously speaking i think the cadets yrs are the best. though i joined only in sec 2, i really enjoyed it. my close frens are there and i made close frens there. whenever there's sth tt we're unhappy abt, u can see everyone get so worked up and eventually discussions take place. whether is it good times or bad times whether we're sharing jokes during waterbreak or doing footdrill under the hot sun, we're through it all together. competitions, camps. they are all truely unforgettable. somehow i feel that there's always this gap between ma'ams and cadets. i would say being a ma'am, i nv really make an effort to noe e juniors better. i wanna slap myself alr. actl it's kinda MAO DUN. sigh. dinner time and oh gosh, my ulcer, damn painful. my gums. i wonder if they're infected or sth. everything jus seems so wrong. wrong wrong wrong! was eating dinner like some slow poke. den my mum nagged AGN. she says im irresponsible cos of some of the things i do. i mean i jus FORGOT. not tt im irresponsible. but if u take forget as part of irresponsible. den it's fine. i am then. gr. i hate it when she says i BU FU ZE REN. seriously HATE IT. and after tt she called my selfish! i was in sucha bad mood and she wanted me to cap back tis biscuit container cos only my hands were clean. i xie yen kan ta. gave her tt kind of look. cos e ulcer is hurting so much and im trying hard to eat but yet she still wans me to do tt kind of stupid stuff. ok i sound childish but tis is cos im in a bad mood. yea. i couldnt stand it anymore when she called me ZI SI. tears filled my eyes. i cried in silence. i left the dining table to take tissue. the more she scolds the more i cry. i cried not jus purely cos she's being unreasonable but also cos of a heart filled with sadness. ahh! i felt so fragile all of a sudden. at tt moment i jus wanna cry out loud. but i didnt. it was jus all so quiet.......


oh yes and i wanna mention tt every now and then when i see sth tt has got to do with ndp, i'll think of last yr's ndp marching contingent. i feel very connected to s'pore. i feel patriotic. LOL. it's sth memorable too. i mean i used to complain abt having not enough time to do hw and stuff cos of ndp but now tt it's over, i miss it. spore's 40th bdae :)


everysat.hq.KAYA/redbeanbun.oneNEwaterbottle.sbs.pizzahut.kfc.longqeuesfortoilet.pongpong.esplanade.padang.fireworks.hairgels.goodies.nighttravelhomewithxxandcel.



jus wanna say we shld always treasure what we have now and one shall not have regrets in future. `CHERISH.


one day a wound will become a scar if you dont take good care of it.

TAGBOARD

FREEDOM OF SPEECH YO!

links

GETAWAY

archives

i left the past lying

credits

miscellaneous

my virtual barang